For Now I've Decided To Die

[benjamincurley]

This should be the happiest day of my life, but it is the worst day of my life. Marching band is all but over and I finally got to fulfill my dream of performing. Those few moments of ecstasy while I was on stage just make this day so much worse because I have to put the ultimate high against the lowest low. It just figures that today of all

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[tangerine08]

Ben, as much as you will hate me for this. You have changed. You have become colder, it seems like you are always unhappy. You always talk about not getting what you want and how horrible your life is, plenty of people would be happy to have what you have. And you take it for granted.

[benjamincurley]

Megan what do I have? I am a mediocrity, with no great passion in life, and I just lost the two best friends I have ever had. If anyone wants to trade I'd be happy to accept. I have become colder because I've been wounded more, and I really do want to be happy but I just keep slipping backwards. I don't hate you for saying this, but please tall me what is so great about my life now?

[tangerine08]

we have all been wounded. and as for losing your best friends 1 of them you had jsut been talking about not caring if you lost them. i remember that, dont think i have forgotten.

[benjamincurley]

I never said I didn't care, I just said I wouldn't push my friendship on them again. What should I do? I try to puruse friendships and I am a dick, I let them fall apart and I am backstabbing them.

[tangerine08]

You are not a dick. Atleast you are honest. I guess, but still, try not to be so hurtful