lies
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I don't know what to say to you anymore, nor do I know what to do. My mind and heart are in this huge conflict. My mind trying to protect my heart, and my heart trying to find a resonable answer or explanation to what you've done.
You lied to me. Again. Time number four, and I'm still here. You hid stuff from me. Things you should not be doing while you have a boyfriend. Things that you KNOW are wrong, and things that you know would hurt me if I found out. Well, I did find out. I'm hurting now more than I have in a long time. My hot tears are stinging my disbelieving eyes. I'm still grappling with the disbelief of what you have done.
You swore to me that you would NEVER hide anything from me, nor ever lie to me again. YOU PROMISED, and still...you did. For the longest time now, you've begged me to trust you. Assuring me that I am all you want, that you couldn't be happier with anyone else; couldn't imagine yourself with anyone else.
I can't believe what you tell me now, and I hate that. I HATE IT! You are the one I love, the one I've dedicated every minute of the past 10 months too. It's been you and I.
It's hard for me to believe that you cannot picture yourself with anyone else but me. If that were the case, you wouldn't have done what you did. I'd be enough for you. I'm not.
Like I said, I know I'm not the hottest person in the world. I don't have a ton of money to spoil you with. I don't have much to give you, but what I do have...I've given so willingly. And in return you have given me doubts, lies and shadows. Along with all these, a bit of love and a little bit of yourself.
Basically, dear one, the ball is in your court. You know how things are going to be. They are going to be hard until I can trust you again. But that is YOUR task. It is YOUR job to rebuild the trust.
Decide if you are willing to do this. Decide if you are up to it. You're going to have to be okay with proving everything to me, and okay with me double checking things.
If you're not able, tell me now, and it'll be over.
You know what I want...
It's up to you now.
I love you more than you know-
Bryant J
I don't know what to say to you anymore, nor do I know what to do. My mind and heart are in this huge conflict. My mind trying to protect my heart, and my heart trying to find a resonable answer or explanation to what you've done.
You lied to me. Again. Time number four, and I'm still here. You hid stuff from me. Things you should not be doing while you have a boyfriend. Things that you KNOW are wrong, and things that you know would hurt me if I found out. Well, I did find out. I'm hurting now more than I have in a long time. My hot tears are stinging my disbelieving eyes. I'm still grappling with the disbelief of what you have done.
You swore to me that you would NEVER hide anything from me, nor ever lie to me again. YOU PROMISED, and still...you did. For the longest time now, you've begged me to trust you. Assuring me that I am all you want, that you couldn't be happier with anyone else; couldn't imagine yourself with anyone else.
I can't believe what you tell me now, and I hate that. I HATE IT! You are the one I love, the one I've dedicated every minute of the past 10 months too. It's been you and I.
It's hard for me to believe that you cannot picture yourself with anyone else but me. If that were the case, you wouldn't have done what you did. I'd be enough for you. I'm not.
Like I said, I know I'm not the hottest person in the world. I don't have a ton of money to spoil you with. I don't have much to give you, but what I do have...I've given so willingly. And in return you have given me doubts, lies and shadows. Along with all these, a bit of love and a little bit of yourself.
Basically, dear one, the ball is in your court. You know how things are going to be. They are going to be hard until I can trust you again. But that is YOUR task. It is YOUR job to rebuild the trust.
Decide if you are willing to do this. Decide if you are up to it. You're going to have to be okay with proving everything to me, and okay with me double checking things.
If you're not able, tell me now, and it'll be over.
You know what I want...
It's up to you now.
I love you more than you know-
Bryant J