Bitch Rant
So, I dont know if Ive stated this already, but Im taking a Chem lab class, that I FUCKING hate. Purposely, apparently the general chem lab for undergrads is rediculously hard, Im guessing to weed out those without the "determination" to keep going(you know, someone's lab reports from the year before). But I fucking hate it, and it's been the bane of my existence for this quarter. None of the labs ever go right for me and the graders are fucking Nazi's. The only thing that's been great about this lab was my TA, who was the coolest TA fucking ever.
But, I dont know about that anymore after today, the worst day ever. And ironically, the experiment we were doing today was fucking easy! What sucked came from an incident last week.
Now last week we were on an experiment where it was POSSIBLE to finish in one day. Of course, being the product of the LAUSD, Ive never done labs in my life, so I take a billion extra hours to write down observations since I really have no idea what Im supposed to expect usually. The TA goes "If everyone finishes today, we dont have lab on wednesday" (labs are mondays and wednesdays 12:00-2:50PM for me). Anyways, so OF COURSE Im the only one not done at the end of class on Monday. So, being the awesome TA he was, my TA goes "Ben umm, if you want to finish the lab you can come in tommorrow morning since I teach a class tuesdays and thursdays from 8 to 11." Im like awesome, but I forget that the next day is room selection day for the 2006-2007 year, so Im so preoccupied with figuring out who Im gonna live with next year, that I COMPLETELY forget about lab on tuesday. OK, honestly I never actually thought about lab until 12:30 on tuesday, but I WAS too preoccupied with where I was gonna live next year anyways.And I go shit. Well, there's nothing I can do about missing lab, Ill just tell the TA why I couldnt come in on that specific Tuesday.
On Wednesday, like usual I go to the lab wondering, well maybe he'll be there being the cool TA he is, so I can get the lab done. I pull on the handle and it's locked. I knock, but nobody's there. I wait til 12:05 then decide well, usually he's there early so obviously he's not coming, and I leave. I bump into a girl from the same lab class and ask her whether she thinks the TA would be in the lab and she goes "No, we dont have lab today, so he wouldnt."
So I go back to my dorm, feeling kinda shitty for forgetting the day before and being unable to complete the assignment.
Well I come in today, and go "Sorry I didnt come in on Tuesday."
And the TA is like "Ben, why didnt you come in on Tuesday OR even Wednesday."
And Im like "I couldnt come on Tuesday, but I came on Wednesday and the door was locked."
He goes "I was here wednesday overseeing two other students."
And Im like "But, I...did come...it was locked....I even bumped into Kelly on the way back to my dorm."
And he was like "Are you calling me a LIAR!?"
And Im like "No, but IM not lying!"
And then one of my friends from the lab goes "I came too on Wednesday."
And Im like "What?"
And he goes "Yeah, I came at like 12:05."
And Im like, "So how was the door locked when I was here til 12:05?"
And he goes, "well, I dont know" making me look like a complete fucking fraud. I mean, I did talk to Kelly, which she remembers vividly, but how much proof is that that I tried to attempt to make up the lab, especially when this other dude says he was there at the same time I claim to have left? So, I just shut up and had to do the entire experiment for today, which was very akward since I still had to be around the TA who thought I was a fucking liar. And as relieved as I was to get out of the lab, Im walking back to my dorm with the guy who said he was there at 12:05 and I go "I dont know how I was there til 12:05 and the door was locked and no one was there if you were there and he was there with two other students"
And he goes "well, actually I came somewhere between 12:05 and 12:10. And the TA was just putting on his labcoat. I didnt know the time exactly." Great, motherfucking great. Testimony against me from an unreliable source. Why god, why?
So basically I might fail Chemlab since some of my grade depends on the TA's personal opinion of you, and the TA now thinks Im some kind of lying ass douche since I tried to argue my position. But I mean, that's not even important. I just didnt want to be thought of as a liar by such a fucking awesome TA, when I honestly was telling the truth. I mean, Id never BS my way out of responsibility for my own stupidity, as Ive always owned up to stupid shit Ive done in the past. I hate my life. I hate school. Next quarter will be better. Next quarter will be better. Keep telling myself that, but next quarter Im stuck in a double turned into a triple on the other side of fucking campus, farthest away from the beach and basically isolated from the rest of campus and all of the friends I made this year.
But, I dont know about that anymore after today, the worst day ever. And ironically, the experiment we were doing today was fucking easy! What sucked came from an incident last week.
Now last week we were on an experiment where it was POSSIBLE to finish in one day. Of course, being the product of the LAUSD, Ive never done labs in my life, so I take a billion extra hours to write down observations since I really have no idea what Im supposed to expect usually. The TA goes "If everyone finishes today, we dont have lab on wednesday" (labs are mondays and wednesdays 12:00-2:50PM for me). Anyways, so OF COURSE Im the only one not done at the end of class on Monday. So, being the awesome TA he was, my TA goes "Ben umm, if you want to finish the lab you can come in tommorrow morning since I teach a class tuesdays and thursdays from 8 to 11." Im like awesome, but I forget that the next day is room selection day for the 2006-2007 year, so Im so preoccupied with figuring out who Im gonna live with next year, that I COMPLETELY forget about lab on tuesday. OK, honestly I never actually thought about lab until 12:30 on tuesday, but I WAS too preoccupied with where I was gonna live next year anyways.And I go shit. Well, there's nothing I can do about missing lab, Ill just tell the TA why I couldnt come in on that specific Tuesday.
On Wednesday, like usual I go to the lab wondering, well maybe he'll be there being the cool TA he is, so I can get the lab done. I pull on the handle and it's locked. I knock, but nobody's there. I wait til 12:05 then decide well, usually he's there early so obviously he's not coming, and I leave. I bump into a girl from the same lab class and ask her whether she thinks the TA would be in the lab and she goes "No, we dont have lab today, so he wouldnt."
So I go back to my dorm, feeling kinda shitty for forgetting the day before and being unable to complete the assignment.
Well I come in today, and go "Sorry I didnt come in on Tuesday."
And the TA is like "Ben, why didnt you come in on Tuesday OR even Wednesday."
And Im like "I couldnt come on Tuesday, but I came on Wednesday and the door was locked."
He goes "I was here wednesday overseeing two other students."
And Im like "But, I...did come...it was locked....I even bumped into Kelly on the way back to my dorm."
And he was like "Are you calling me a LIAR!?"
And Im like "No, but IM not lying!"
And then one of my friends from the lab goes "I came too on Wednesday."
And Im like "What?"
And he goes "Yeah, I came at like 12:05."
And Im like, "So how was the door locked when I was here til 12:05?"
And he goes, "well, I dont know" making me look like a complete fucking fraud. I mean, I did talk to Kelly, which she remembers vividly, but how much proof is that that I tried to attempt to make up the lab, especially when this other dude says he was there at the same time I claim to have left? So, I just shut up and had to do the entire experiment for today, which was very akward since I still had to be around the TA who thought I was a fucking liar. And as relieved as I was to get out of the lab, Im walking back to my dorm with the guy who said he was there at 12:05 and I go "I dont know how I was there til 12:05 and the door was locked and no one was there if you were there and he was there with two other students"
And he goes "well, actually I came somewhere between 12:05 and 12:10. And the TA was just putting on his labcoat. I didnt know the time exactly." Great, motherfucking great. Testimony against me from an unreliable source. Why god, why?
So basically I might fail Chemlab since some of my grade depends on the TA's personal opinion of you, and the TA now thinks Im some kind of lying ass douche since I tried to argue my position. But I mean, that's not even important. I just didnt want to be thought of as a liar by such a fucking awesome TA, when I honestly was telling the truth. I mean, Id never BS my way out of responsibility for my own stupidity, as Ive always owned up to stupid shit Ive done in the past. I hate my life. I hate school. Next quarter will be better. Next quarter will be better. Keep telling myself that, but next quarter Im stuck in a double turned into a triple on the other side of fucking campus, farthest away from the beach and basically isolated from the rest of campus and all of the friends I made this year.