More about The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I'm now about halfway through my second read of Perks. I don't know what is making me so attached to this book. I guess it's sort of my Catcher in the Rye like Bill said it's a book you make "your own." So much of it is reminding me of my own life. Not that my aunt ever sexually molested me or anything but I certainly have my own traumatizing experiences that have made me who I am. AH awesome I found the quote!: "...I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
I haven't taken a book this much to heart in a long time. In fact I don't think I ever have. Is that not a good thing? Well I suppose it's better than like getting into astrology books and shit like that and just believing everything you read... this book just kind of makes you think, about who you are, and where you belong, and where you're going to... it's a thinking book. I'm feeling really good. I really think I'm starting to find myself. This book might even be the topic I choose for my college essays.
By the way I'm seriously considering like making a little amateur movie or something out of this book... or maybe like doing it with the drama club at school or something. But I donno about that. There's definitely specific people who are very close to me that don't even go to my school that I'd need to put in most of the parts (see previous posts). I suppose it makes me feel like I don't know them well enough... that I want to be closer to a lot of people whom I've always liked yet never hung out with enough. And at the same time it makes me feel like I don't know myself well enough. Charlie experiences so much and learns so much about himself in Perks... not that I'm about to go out and try acid right this moment or anything, but one thing is I definitely need to learn to drive soon :P And I want to feel infinite again... I've had that exact feeling a few times in my life but I feel like maybe that's what our whole existence is based on, like that's the meaning of everything, just that feeling like you are a part of the whole, like you are the whole, like you are just totally connected to everything... the feeling you get when you're listening to Kevin Hearn on a long car ride or you're wandering around outside with friends on a summer night joking around or you're laying down next to someone you love and staring at the stars. It sounds kinda sentimental I suppose but who really gives a fuck. I want to feel infinite again.
I like when I read books and I start crying.
I haven't taken a book this much to heart in a long time. In fact I don't think I ever have. Is that not a good thing? Well I suppose it's better than like getting into astrology books and shit like that and just believing everything you read... this book just kind of makes you think, about who you are, and where you belong, and where you're going to... it's a thinking book. I'm feeling really good. I really think I'm starting to find myself. This book might even be the topic I choose for my college essays.
By the way I'm seriously considering like making a little amateur movie or something out of this book... or maybe like doing it with the drama club at school or something. But I donno about that. There's definitely specific people who are very close to me that don't even go to my school that I'd need to put in most of the parts (see previous posts). I suppose it makes me feel like I don't know them well enough... that I want to be closer to a lot of people whom I've always liked yet never hung out with enough. And at the same time it makes me feel like I don't know myself well enough. Charlie experiences so much and learns so much about himself in Perks... not that I'm about to go out and try acid right this moment or anything, but one thing is I definitely need to learn to drive soon :P And I want to feel infinite again... I've had that exact feeling a few times in my life but I feel like maybe that's what our whole existence is based on, like that's the meaning of everything, just that feeling like you are a part of the whole, like you are the whole, like you are just totally connected to everything... the feeling you get when you're listening to Kevin Hearn on a long car ride or you're wandering around outside with friends on a summer night joking around or you're laying down next to someone you love and staring at the stars. It sounds kinda sentimental I suppose but who really gives a fuck. I want to feel infinite again.
I like when I read books and I start crying.