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I won't lie about it. I cried a little tuesday night. And then I went outside, and stood in the rain, just to be alone for a few minutes.
We want change. That's one of obama's mottos. which is surprising that its worked so well, being as we as humans resist change. Do I want change? For the country, yes. When people were chanting in the lodge, all I could think was. Do I really want change? I've had so much change in the last semester. Are all these changes things I've wanted?
I think the answer is no. And I think I know what I want to do with that. I think I know what I have to do with that. Its just going to be hard.
On another note, I cried not because of the change. But because I felt like for the first time, I had DONE something. Mattered somehow. I gave my friends hugs and told them how much they all mean to me. Young Dems isn't just a hobby- its a support group. Its the history of my college career. Its my best friends.
And maybe what precipitated realizing the change in my life was not a change I wanted was the one person who was missing from these celebrations. One person who I wanted to tell but couldn't. I don't know, maybe I'm rambling.
We want change. That's one of obama's mottos. which is surprising that its worked so well, being as we as humans resist change. Do I want change? For the country, yes. When people were chanting in the lodge, all I could think was. Do I really want change? I've had so much change in the last semester. Are all these changes things I've wanted?
I think the answer is no. And I think I know what I want to do with that. I think I know what I have to do with that. Its just going to be hard.
On another note, I cried not because of the change. But because I felt like for the first time, I had DONE something. Mattered somehow. I gave my friends hugs and told them how much they all mean to me. Young Dems isn't just a hobby- its a support group. Its the history of my college career. Its my best friends.
And maybe what precipitated realizing the change in my life was not a change I wanted was the one person who was missing from these celebrations. One person who I wanted to tell but couldn't. I don't know, maybe I'm rambling.