somehow that's how these parties always seem to end...
so i'm fairly sure everybody's sick about reading my crap by now, but i'm enjoying the fact i am able to document what's been going on... it helps me spell things out a little more carefully, in order for me to make (what i would hope to be) a slightly more informed decision.
i spoke to tim last night.
it was very awkward, because both of us didn't have much to say to each other.
i think i copped a fairly raw deal in the whole thing, tho.
i noted that my suggestions for the waterslides were merely suggestions... and that it's not my place to expect anything to change, etc. i continued to say that i know that the ideal situation is just outside of reality, which i'm fine with. i don't care. i'm not just saying it, i really don't care. that band takes up too much of my thoughts and effort than it currently should; i'm stupid to annoy myself with it any more.
however, it doesn't resolve my issue with my position in the band... tim had nothing. which i should have expected. i have a fairly sensible solution, but i really can't be fucked voicing it. so it appears i'll miserably plod along with the waterslides till i find a creative outlet in something else.
as for the silent runners, tim flat out said he doesn't have time for it.
i suppose it's hard when he works 50+ hours a week, has to commute between three states, and on top of all of that has to services friends, family, girlfriend, and the waterslides............ oh wait, that's me.
tell me; is sarcasm apparent in blog form?
in all honesty, this has probably hit me harder than anything. even tho it was apparent that the silent runners were never going to happen. there is so much of me in the silent runners tunes... i worked so hard to put those tunes together. and it's all fallen in a heap before it ever got off the ground. which means close to two years of work just fucking burnt down and pissed on.
it almost brings me to tears just thinking about it. i've considered deleting all of the tunes off my itunes library, in an attempt to erase any memory of it.
i'm coming home tonight. i really wish i wasn't tho. i hope my plane bursts into flames, standing idle on the runway, so i have to stay in brisbane. I'm really not keen to face any of this shit on my weekend. i know it's going to fucking peak on saturday night. i think i might just roll up for the set, and then fuck off home.
i'd be amazed if anyone has read this far. no need for comments. thanks.
i spoke to tim last night.
it was very awkward, because both of us didn't have much to say to each other.
i think i copped a fairly raw deal in the whole thing, tho.
i noted that my suggestions for the waterslides were merely suggestions... and that it's not my place to expect anything to change, etc. i continued to say that i know that the ideal situation is just outside of reality, which i'm fine with. i don't care. i'm not just saying it, i really don't care. that band takes up too much of my thoughts and effort than it currently should; i'm stupid to annoy myself with it any more.
however, it doesn't resolve my issue with my position in the band... tim had nothing. which i should have expected. i have a fairly sensible solution, but i really can't be fucked voicing it. so it appears i'll miserably plod along with the waterslides till i find a creative outlet in something else.
as for the silent runners, tim flat out said he doesn't have time for it.
i suppose it's hard when he works 50+ hours a week, has to commute between three states, and on top of all of that has to services friends, family, girlfriend, and the waterslides............ oh wait, that's me.
tell me; is sarcasm apparent in blog form?
in all honesty, this has probably hit me harder than anything. even tho it was apparent that the silent runners were never going to happen. there is so much of me in the silent runners tunes... i worked so hard to put those tunes together. and it's all fallen in a heap before it ever got off the ground. which means close to two years of work just fucking burnt down and pissed on.
it almost brings me to tears just thinking about it. i've considered deleting all of the tunes off my itunes library, in an attempt to erase any memory of it.
i'm coming home tonight. i really wish i wasn't tho. i hope my plane bursts into flames, standing idle on the runway, so i have to stay in brisbane. I'm really not keen to face any of this shit on my weekend. i know it's going to fucking peak on saturday night. i think i might just roll up for the set, and then fuck off home.
i'd be amazed if anyone has read this far. no need for comments. thanks.