Lies

[belovedxstar]

Suddenly everything we had seems like a huge lie...
When you looked at me, was it really me you saw?
Or was is someone else...
Maybe I was just more convenient...
Was that it?
Was I just convenient just like the last girl..?
It makes me wonder.. who really is in your heart?
I don't wanna believe it's possible, but did you ever truly love me as much as you said you did?

The way you are around her..
The way you speak to her...
The chemistry between the two of you...
It doesnt hurt because it feels like I was replaced,
but because it feels like I was never really there...

I feel like I finally understand why I felt that you changed..
It was as if you were trying to mold me into her...
All these explanations are coming to me that make so much sense
but I'd hate it if it were all true.
I feel like I'd rather wander around in confusion than face this kind of truth...

Tho its over, I can still be happy at the fact that all it happened
But if it was all lies... then I'd regret the whole thing...
I don't want to regret what we had....

~Beloved Star