Love & Heartbreak

[belovedxstar]

So much for us going back to having fun talking to each other again...
All this time I was hoping and praying that someone he would understand how I feel- that I still do truly care for him and that I never meant any harm. I truly always tried my best to make him happy no matter what. I never tried this hard for anyone else..
I wish he could really see how much he means to me..
I dont want anything in return tho.. I know we arent meant to be now... but still..
I want him to know.. I want him to understand...
I want my love to reach him...
*sigh* And yet after all that hoping and praying, all I get is an email saying he wants certain things back because they were expensive...

He's such a precious person to me. Boyfriend or not. Best friend or not.
I don't wanna lose him..
I dont wanna forget our time together...
I dont wanna act like it all didnt even happen at all...
I understand if it all has to end... but not like this...
Iono if I can stand it ending this way...
Urgh.. my eyes burn from crying so much..
Oh God please give me strength.. =[

~Beloved Star