not again

[belovedromance]

So im looking at my myspace and i click over to his page. His page changed, it changed in the fact that my comment was deleted and the picture comment i made was also deleted. "when september ends" is the viedo on his page and i dont know how to take that. I cant and i wont deal with anymore bullshit. I dont know how to handle this or what to say but i know that i already feel myself getting hurt and i dont like it. which means i like him more than i thought, and it sucks because if liking him is going to feel like this then i should have never gone to jacksonville. Theres no trace of me anywhere on his myspace and i feel like hes trying to hide me from someone, i think its his ex ( whos #1 on his friends... well at least i think thats her ). I feel sick to my stomach right now and i really feel like picking up with phone and asking him why? the picture comment just said - handsome <3 - thats it... and thats not even on there. Im so upset right now and i feel like i dont have anyone to talk to about it. theres no possible explanation for him deleting the evidence of me on his page.... did he think i wasnt going to notice?

Seriously i feel like punching concrete right now to take the away from my heart.

... this is dumb