SHIT.
I thought I was a lot stronger than I am.
Aparently not.
I'm so emotionless to everything I just want to stab myself in the leg to see if I'll feel it.
I miss all my friends.
I miss my being with them everyday.
I know I said I wasn't going to make a big deal out of this
and that I wouldn't cry, but
FUCK
I can't help it.
How did I let myself get so low? Am I not the one who can hold my head up NO MATTER WHAT?! I just feel that no matter how much I have lost and how much I'm loosing I'm still getting drained.
I'm listening to Emily By FromFirstToLast, and I never would admit it except for now but because of this song, like every other girl on the planet who's heard it, I wish I was her.
Her, or someone who wasn't me.
Hopefully like everything else I will loose this mood by tomorrow, Tonight.
<3
Aparently not.
I'm so emotionless to everything I just want to stab myself in the leg to see if I'll feel it.
I miss all my friends.
I miss my being with them everyday.
I know I said I wasn't going to make a big deal out of this
and that I wouldn't cry, but
FUCK
I can't help it.
How did I let myself get so low? Am I not the one who can hold my head up NO MATTER WHAT?! I just feel that no matter how much I have lost and how much I'm loosing I'm still getting drained.
I'm listening to Emily By FromFirstToLast, and I never would admit it except for now but because of this song, like every other girl on the planet who's heard it, I wish I was her.
Her, or someone who wasn't me.
Hopefully like everything else I will loose this mood by tomorrow, Tonight.
<3