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I'm a person that's prone to feeling unnecessary. Unimportant. Unloved.
I expressed this to one of my best friends last weekend. And he assured me that I was a core member of the group. That I was important. That I was loved.
Tonight, there was a big blowout in my circle of friends. And the same friend who assured me that I was important and I had a big head to head. Finally, he told me just how important I was. Without meaning to even address what I was feeling last week.
"You're my heart. You're my conscience. Whenever I need guidance, I come to you before anyone else. I trust you with everything."
He said this right after saying that he had a lot of female influence in his life. I questioned if he meant the females in his life or me specifically. He looked me straight in the eye, nearly incredulous that I didn't understand him right away, and said to me, "Yes, fuckin' you! Just you!"
That meant more to me than any amount of "You are importants" anyone could give me.
I have needed that from someone my entire life. And no one else ever got it. And he didn't even try.
I expressed this to one of my best friends last weekend. And he assured me that I was a core member of the group. That I was important. That I was loved.
Tonight, there was a big blowout in my circle of friends. And the same friend who assured me that I was important and I had a big head to head. Finally, he told me just how important I was. Without meaning to even address what I was feeling last week.
"You're my heart. You're my conscience. Whenever I need guidance, I come to you before anyone else. I trust you with everything."
He said this right after saying that he had a lot of female influence in his life. I questioned if he meant the females in his life or me specifically. He looked me straight in the eye, nearly incredulous that I didn't understand him right away, and said to me, "Yes, fuckin' you! Just you!"
That meant more to me than any amount of "You are importants" anyone could give me.
I have needed that from someone my entire life. And no one else ever got it. And he didn't even try.