present and future
I want to make things beautiful.
Is that a life goal?
I cannot wait until I have my own place, my own space, in the "real world" that I can make scream Courtney.
I want to paint and frame and love.
I want a yard.
Maybe even a garden.
I want to be a peaceful adult.
I want to make a difference in the community that I live in.
I want to be healthy.
And I want to live with another.
I do nto want to live by myself for very long.
I do want to be married at 27, or before the end of 29.
I want a child by the time I am 32.
I don't want to get divorced.
I want to live someplace mildly, or extremely, exotic.
But I also do not want to fear hurricanes, earthquakes, or tsunamis.
I want my chil[ren] to go to boarding school.
Or at least private school.
I'd love for them to go to TASIS.
I wouldn't mind living in Lugano.
It's exotic.
And my h-e-t fears cannot be realized there.
I suppose that means I should brush up on my Italian.
I wish I were daring enough to be an artist.
But I don't want to starve. And given my talent level
that might be likely.
lol
I want to be poetic.
I want to write a book that wins awards of merit.
I don't know if I want it to be fiction or not.
My life is ridiculous.
Maybe if I wrote about it well I could receive some retribution.
hahaha
retribution.
but I am happy.
satisfied.
well… content. I don't ever want to be satisfied.
I want to always strive to achieve more.
Be more.
Be better.
Never still.
I want to be restless.
Yes. I kid you not.
I don't ever want to become so proud of myself that I feel accomplished.
What will I ever have to be proud of?
I am afraid to Stop.
Stop what? I do not know, but I can't stop.
You might ask, "well, what are you doing?"
-Absolutely nothing, and absolutely something, and definitely not absolutely everything.
What do I want from this world?
•Good health [me, spouse + family]
•Prosperity [wealth + happiness]
•A home [as opposed to merely a house]
•Peace
•Purpose
•Success [I want to figure out my purpose, achieve it in high fashion, and keep on doing things/find another purpose and continue the pattern]
I want to be able to donate to NU and make our ratings rise, haha. ie, i want to become one of those wealthy alumnas.
I adore Northwestern and appreciate her so much.
Living alone this year has made me realize how much I really do want to eventually get married and have kids.
fucking Weird.
:-)
Though not unsurprising.
|sigh|
I need to do work.
So I can achieve my goals.
bt.dubs--in December [tx/md] i will begin major lifestlye changes including beginning to train for the Green Bay marathon [May 20, 2007]. So… support me. And keep me on track. Kick my ass. ;-)
<3
*Love is…
a hope for the future.
Is that a life goal?
I cannot wait until I have my own place, my own space, in the "real world" that I can make scream Courtney.
I want to paint and frame and love.
I want a yard.
Maybe even a garden.
I want to be a peaceful adult.
I want to make a difference in the community that I live in.
I want to be healthy.
And I want to live with another.
I do nto want to live by myself for very long.
I do want to be married at 27, or before the end of 29.
I want a child by the time I am 32.
I don't want to get divorced.
I want to live someplace mildly, or extremely, exotic.
But I also do not want to fear hurricanes, earthquakes, or tsunamis.
I want my chil[ren] to go to boarding school.
Or at least private school.
I'd love for them to go to TASIS.
I wouldn't mind living in Lugano.
It's exotic.
And my h-e-t fears cannot be realized there.
I suppose that means I should brush up on my Italian.
I wish I were daring enough to be an artist.
But I don't want to starve. And given my talent level
that might be likely.
lol
I want to be poetic.
I want to write a book that wins awards of merit.
I don't know if I want it to be fiction or not.
My life is ridiculous.
Maybe if I wrote about it well I could receive some retribution.
hahaha
retribution.
but I am happy.
satisfied.
well… content. I don't ever want to be satisfied.
I want to always strive to achieve more.
Be more.
Be better.
Never still.
I want to be restless.
Yes. I kid you not.
I don't ever want to become so proud of myself that I feel accomplished.
What will I ever have to be proud of?
I am afraid to Stop.
Stop what? I do not know, but I can't stop.
You might ask, "well, what are you doing?"
-Absolutely nothing, and absolutely something, and definitely not absolutely everything.
What do I want from this world?
•Good health [me, spouse + family]
•Prosperity [wealth + happiness]
•A home [as opposed to merely a house]
•Peace
•Purpose
•Success [I want to figure out my purpose, achieve it in high fashion, and keep on doing things/find another purpose and continue the pattern]
I want to be able to donate to NU and make our ratings rise, haha. ie, i want to become one of those wealthy alumnas.
I adore Northwestern and appreciate her so much.
Living alone this year has made me realize how much I really do want to eventually get married and have kids.
fucking Weird.
:-)
Though not unsurprising.
|sigh|
I need to do work.
So I can achieve my goals.
bt.dubs--in December [tx/md] i will begin major lifestlye changes including beginning to train for the Green Bay marathon [May 20, 2007]. So… support me. And keep me on track. Kick my ass. ;-)
<3
*Love is…
a hope for the future.