Snowflakes
I don't know why I feel the need to express all of my newly found epiphanies, but for some reason I do. Anyway, today I found that certain people effect me in a way that will always be somewhat irreversible. I think it must be hard for people who never find anyone to truly bond with. It must be lonely, so I guess I am blessed. I am blessed more than I thought. That is a great feeling. Have you ever had those weeks or even months where it seems like people are all shit? I have had a year of that. Just when I think I have found someone I can trust or give some part of my heart to, they turn out to be completely different that what I had hoped. For a while I thought hoping was stupid, but it's not. People are mostly good. They just don't know how to deal with being unsatisfied. I am guilty of the same thing. This may not come as a shock to some, but it is for me... so shut the fuck up you nay saying cockfaces!
The reason for this entry's name is quite simple. Someone I love dearly wrote me an email with the same name and I wanted to remind myself of it. I don't exactly need to br reminded, but I enjoy looking at it. I have found something different. It needs no label, no name, or explaination. The only way I know to describe it is good. I have found passion without touch or words. I have found happiness without understanding, and an effortless knowing. Many things have happened over the course of the last few months of my being here. I learned a lot about people I thought I knew. It turns out that they are nothing like I perceived them to be. My roommates seem to be the ones that I knew the least. I am glad to have gotten to know them all. I only hope that I can stay with then for as long as they can stand me. Things have changed so much since I first came here. I have gained more respect for friendship. It is a good feeling and I am glad to have it. I am sitting here watching my third episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, and it has occurred to me that my roommates are turning me into a SUPER NERD. I'm actually fine with it. It's stupid and mushy, but it makes me feel closer to all of them.
Okay, I'm done being mushy. I just wanted to convey my gratitude to whomever is in charge of my placement here. I am happy to be here. To all of my friends, I love you all very, very much and I am honored to have you in my life.
The reason for this entry's name is quite simple. Someone I love dearly wrote me an email with the same name and I wanted to remind myself of it. I don't exactly need to br reminded, but I enjoy looking at it. I have found something different. It needs no label, no name, or explaination. The only way I know to describe it is good. I have found passion without touch or words. I have found happiness without understanding, and an effortless knowing. Many things have happened over the course of the last few months of my being here. I learned a lot about people I thought I knew. It turns out that they are nothing like I perceived them to be. My roommates seem to be the ones that I knew the least. I am glad to have gotten to know them all. I only hope that I can stay with then for as long as they can stand me. Things have changed so much since I first came here. I have gained more respect for friendship. It is a good feeling and I am glad to have it. I am sitting here watching my third episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, and it has occurred to me that my roommates are turning me into a SUPER NERD. I'm actually fine with it. It's stupid and mushy, but it makes me feel closer to all of them.
Okay, I'm done being mushy. I just wanted to convey my gratitude to whomever is in charge of my placement here. I am happy to be here. To all of my friends, I love you all very, very much and I am honored to have you in my life.