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So I suppose I should make an update for anyone whose been wondering wtfs happening with mee.
CAUSE YOU'RE ALL INTERESTED.
I ended up going to the hospital the other week with my mum, but as it turns out, our mental health facilities are all but non-existent in this city. SO, I ended up having an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist, which mummy came to and they basically sat there and talked about me while I tried to defend myself xD ("I AM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC." "Mum slitting my wrist isn't new I've been doing that since I was like, 11", "k but seriously I only drink on weekends! And if theres something going on during the week. also, if I have money. not an alcoholic.") He ended up prescribing me 25mg of seroquel, 5mg of olanzapine and my same dosage (20mg) of cipralex and enrolled me in two groups, for mood disorders and for anxiety disordes. I also got my complete list of diagnoses, PTSD, General Anxiety, Bipolar II, BPD and a healthy dose of depression. Like, is that even possible? To have all that at once? Whatever, anyways. I've been on basically lockdown since then, my parents are all freaked out about me going anywhere that isn't with David or Ariel because they think I'm "fragile" or some shit. I'm better now, but that's probably medication talking. I've been going thru some shit with Casper, in that he got back with his lying, cheating skankbag of an 18-year-old exgirlfriend because she put on a hell of an act like she was remorseful. I found her Plenty of Fish account a few days ago, that she had recently been on, so I mean, she can't be TOO remorseful. She just knew I was moving in "her territory" and didn't like it I guess haha. Whatever, that won't last, he tells me he's unhappy and he's basically just with her because he can't let go of the past and all that, which I can understand.
BECAUSE. Speaking of letting go of the past,
yesterday I headed out to Aaron's family's house for easter dinner lmfao. I spent the majority of the time hanging out with his mum and sister, and his mum asked me to come hangout with them for the weekend this upcoming weekend. Like, he won't even be there. His family just loves me more than him. She also gave me the first season of GoT on DVD bahaha. Coming home from there was a little difficult, driving down the familiar roads in his truck, laughing our asses off at each other. I mean, I'm over him in the sense that I no longer want to be with him, but damn if being around him doesn't remind me of a time when I was literally crazy in love.
I've also been hanging out with David a lot because he's very protective of me and takes care of me and makes me feel worth something, but in NO WAY do I want to ever get back with him. I guess it's kind of like I love him like a brother? I'm not sexually attracted to him, and I feel really comfortable with him.
So I've been holed up in my room watching Supernatural, occasionally venturing out to get my drink on with people. I got to see Jaimie this weekend, I haven't really hung out with her proper for like..yeeears so it was wicked good to be around her.
CAUSE YOU'RE ALL INTERESTED.
I ended up going to the hospital the other week with my mum, but as it turns out, our mental health facilities are all but non-existent in this city. SO, I ended up having an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist, which mummy came to and they basically sat there and talked about me while I tried to defend myself xD ("I AM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC." "Mum slitting my wrist isn't new I've been doing that since I was like, 11", "k but seriously I only drink on weekends! And if theres something going on during the week. also, if I have money. not an alcoholic.") He ended up prescribing me 25mg of seroquel, 5mg of olanzapine and my same dosage (20mg) of cipralex and enrolled me in two groups, for mood disorders and for anxiety disordes. I also got my complete list of diagnoses, PTSD, General Anxiety, Bipolar II, BPD and a healthy dose of depression. Like, is that even possible? To have all that at once? Whatever, anyways. I've been on basically lockdown since then, my parents are all freaked out about me going anywhere that isn't with David or Ariel because they think I'm "fragile" or some shit. I'm better now, but that's probably medication talking. I've been going thru some shit with Casper, in that he got back with his lying, cheating skankbag of an 18-year-old exgirlfriend because she put on a hell of an act like she was remorseful. I found her Plenty of Fish account a few days ago, that she had recently been on, so I mean, she can't be TOO remorseful. She just knew I was moving in "her territory" and didn't like it I guess haha. Whatever, that won't last, he tells me he's unhappy and he's basically just with her because he can't let go of the past and all that, which I can understand.
BECAUSE. Speaking of letting go of the past,
yesterday I headed out to Aaron's family's house for easter dinner lmfao. I spent the majority of the time hanging out with his mum and sister, and his mum asked me to come hangout with them for the weekend this upcoming weekend. Like, he won't even be there. His family just loves me more than him. She also gave me the first season of GoT on DVD bahaha. Coming home from there was a little difficult, driving down the familiar roads in his truck, laughing our asses off at each other. I mean, I'm over him in the sense that I no longer want to be with him, but damn if being around him doesn't remind me of a time when I was literally crazy in love.
I've also been hanging out with David a lot because he's very protective of me and takes care of me and makes me feel worth something, but in NO WAY do I want to ever get back with him. I guess it's kind of like I love him like a brother? I'm not sexually attracted to him, and I feel really comfortable with him.
So I've been holed up in my room watching Supernatural, occasionally venturing out to get my drink on with people. I got to see Jaimie this weekend, I haven't really hung out with her proper for like..yeeears so it was wicked good to be around her.