This is not a drill
Well that happened. Im glad i didnt get my hopes up. It was basically two hours of my mental health history, childhood, teen years adulthood. And no real resolution. In fact at a point she seemed to dismiss that i had pmdd at all and stated that the problem with having all my co morbidities is that during pms theyd be exacerbated. Like lady really??????? So when she said that i basically said who can she direcr me to that would remove my uterine horns. Which she instantly disapproved of. Telling me that the risk of that is worse or different mental problems. Sooooo yeah. I basically had to tell her all my bullshit. Get all up in there about it all only to be told its probs not gonna happen. Shes looking into birth control, the hormone patch and an oovarectomy. By god if i have to yank them out myself i will. I cant keep doing this. If it werent for this giant monthly tornado id be pretty much alright. Well less volatile any way.
So now im all raw and bloody from talking about all my bullshit and there is nothing to assuage. So i bought ice cream. And cookies. Cause motherfuck a wednesday.