GA WI OK (dont kill me mofo!)
what the hell is wrong with me?
why cant i do insanity? i've become totally out of touch with my insane side.
thats what happens when you're infected with scurvy.
because my own insanity is lurking......its just burrowed so deep in its hibernation that its in danger of remaining in a long dark tunnel forever. like in the Phil the groundhog story i wrote for creative writing class.
i had lots of fun tonite....seeing audrey and BRITZ for the first time in far too long, along with the loveliest ladies of Run WJ and m-PRATT (so so happy for her)
tonite was very chill.
but theres more i intended on doing. its strange. i hadnt spent a night out since valentines day, and i intended on inflicting pain on myself by getting 3 holes in my ear and then finally making use of the $$$ i shelled out to nika about a MONTH ago which has just been sitting waiting...
so mimi just said that she needs a tutorial on how to release her inner insanity.
here's my 12 step plan:
1. first, we smoke dis shit yo
2. then we take alex rubin up on his 151 as described in his xanga...
3. all of the above takes place in my house, because as me and mimi were saying, all the insanity only seems to take place on 10th St. i guess mi casa is condusive
4. then we unlease the random boys and let them in (or, watch as they walk in unnoticed because nobody closed my front door---again, something which only seems to happen at my house)
5. this is supposed to be 12 steps? hahah not happening.
6. um, my video camera?
7. mike shane?
8. you know what, i think insanity is more a frame of mind.. i cant describe it. but when contemplating getting my ear pierced, i realized that i've actually been contemplating it--whereas two years ago i just pierced my tongue. just like that. i didnt tell anyone, i didnt even tell max i was going to do it....when i got back from doing it he said hi, and when i tried to say hi back and couldnt, the look on his face was priceless. because who the hell just goes out for lunch and then comes home with a pierced tongue?
me?
hmm, guess so.
insanity is about just not caring. and the problem is, these days i do care. i actually do stay in to do chemistry.
god i hope this is just an exam-phase.
SPEAKING OF WHICH......nevermind. i'm not leaving to go do work. its 3am.
the korean food tonite was excellent and the restaurant was....memorable. hahaha, i love xenophobic waitresses. especially when their version of xenophobia is directed towards a non asian person on 32nd street of our own damn city.
i think i'd really like to take lots of pictures with my new camera. to get whoever wants to together and do a photo shoot.....and between my lack of photographic skills and my scratched UV filter, the pictures will look......avante garde.
although my dream is to recreate Avedon's photo of members of the Factory. god, they are just the epitome of deck, before there was "deck". we were going to do the shoot with my mom a while back, but then i stopped being friends with everyone who would have been involved. funny how things (dont) work out like that....
this is the entry that never ends. yes it goes on and on my friends.
i MUST stop. must sleep.
you know what? i dont even really care that i dont have a boyfriend. because i talked to danny today and we had a really good conversation, and we'll see each other in June, and that is fine. and just knowing max is there is fine. and thats enough.
for now.
i feel like the past and the present and the future has just been so mixed together lately.
yeah yeah you're probably thinking, what kind of pretentious statement is that? but honestly....i've been thinking way more about the spring and summer than i usually do in years past (not surprisingly)
and since i havent had a life outside of my bedroom for the past 2 weeks, i've also been thinking a lot about my past
even tonight, we went through piles of bucks rock pictures, which of course was a trip down memory lane (oh how quaint)
and i like it that way. i'm content to totally NOT live in the moment. and thats probably why my insanity has left me.
and so my thoughts come full circle, and i love it when they do that. mwahahaha
peace
why cant i do insanity? i've become totally out of touch with my insane side.
thats what happens when you're infected with scurvy.
because my own insanity is lurking......its just burrowed so deep in its hibernation that its in danger of remaining in a long dark tunnel forever. like in the Phil the groundhog story i wrote for creative writing class.
i had lots of fun tonite....seeing audrey and BRITZ for the first time in far too long, along with the loveliest ladies of Run WJ and m-PRATT (so so happy for her)
tonite was very chill.
but theres more i intended on doing. its strange. i hadnt spent a night out since valentines day, and i intended on inflicting pain on myself by getting 3 holes in my ear and then finally making use of the $$$ i shelled out to nika about a MONTH ago which has just been sitting waiting...
so mimi just said that she needs a tutorial on how to release her inner insanity.
here's my 12 step plan:
1. first, we smoke dis shit yo
2. then we take alex rubin up on his 151 as described in his xanga...
3. all of the above takes place in my house, because as me and mimi were saying, all the insanity only seems to take place on 10th St. i guess mi casa is condusive
4. then we unlease the random boys and let them in (or, watch as they walk in unnoticed because nobody closed my front door---again, something which only seems to happen at my house)
5. this is supposed to be 12 steps? hahah not happening.
6. um, my video camera?
7. mike shane?
8. you know what, i think insanity is more a frame of mind.. i cant describe it. but when contemplating getting my ear pierced, i realized that i've actually been contemplating it--whereas two years ago i just pierced my tongue. just like that. i didnt tell anyone, i didnt even tell max i was going to do it....when i got back from doing it he said hi, and when i tried to say hi back and couldnt, the look on his face was priceless. because who the hell just goes out for lunch and then comes home with a pierced tongue?
me?
hmm, guess so.
insanity is about just not caring. and the problem is, these days i do care. i actually do stay in to do chemistry.
god i hope this is just an exam-phase.
SPEAKING OF WHICH......nevermind. i'm not leaving to go do work. its 3am.
the korean food tonite was excellent and the restaurant was....memorable. hahaha, i love xenophobic waitresses. especially when their version of xenophobia is directed towards a non asian person on 32nd street of our own damn city.
i think i'd really like to take lots of pictures with my new camera. to get whoever wants to together and do a photo shoot.....and between my lack of photographic skills and my scratched UV filter, the pictures will look......avante garde.
although my dream is to recreate Avedon's photo of members of the Factory. god, they are just the epitome of deck, before there was "deck". we were going to do the shoot with my mom a while back, but then i stopped being friends with everyone who would have been involved. funny how things (dont) work out like that....
this is the entry that never ends. yes it goes on and on my friends.
i MUST stop. must sleep.
you know what? i dont even really care that i dont have a boyfriend. because i talked to danny today and we had a really good conversation, and we'll see each other in June, and that is fine. and just knowing max is there is fine. and thats enough.
for now.
i feel like the past and the present and the future has just been so mixed together lately.
yeah yeah you're probably thinking, what kind of pretentious statement is that? but honestly....i've been thinking way more about the spring and summer than i usually do in years past (not surprisingly)
and since i havent had a life outside of my bedroom for the past 2 weeks, i've also been thinking a lot about my past
even tonight, we went through piles of bucks rock pictures, which of course was a trip down memory lane (oh how quaint)
and i like it that way. i'm content to totally NOT live in the moment. and thats probably why my insanity has left me.
and so my thoughts come full circle, and i love it when they do that. mwahahaha
peace