Another one bites the dust....and Updates on Brian
So it goes....Life that is
Ended things with Mike on Friday. And I am torn about it... Just to much shit going on in both our lives. He is trying to establish a relationship with his son, which I admire and respect. But at the same time he has NO time for me. Not to mention the fact he told me he has some "unresolved feelings" for his ex wife. Ya so I knew I had to walk away. We are suppose to go out Tuesday night and talk...my idea. I need to say a few things to him and I dont want to do it hiding behind a computer screen or on the other end of a phone.
Just the right love, but the wrong time.....
And now to Brian...
Well what can I say poor guy is still in Hell and probably will be for a LONG time. Went to see his dad last night and get a few braclets he had made up (like the LIVESTRONG ones but with Brian printed on them) talked to him for like an hour. Was sad...
So much emotion and anger inside and I dont blame him. Its not fair. Brian is fighting he told us which makes me happy. He also invited us up to see him sometime which made me happy as well. I want to see him now more than ever. Even though he has lost 27 pounds and looks like a ghost. I wanna hug him and just be near him. I hate saying this...but I just dont know how much longer he will be in my life.
This weekend should be good, I plan on being drunk most of the time so that should be fabulous! Johnny Gags is coming home from Vegas and we are having a block party Sunday like mini HS reunion. I am taking a collection for Brian at the party. All the money is going to Dana Farber in Brian's name. I told his dad about it and tears welled up in his eyes.
I swear the past few months...since February...have been so stressful! I havent been this unhappy in a LONG time. But Im just I dont know....Lost?
I am hoping that will all change sometime soon...sooner than later because if not I will need to be committed!
Write soon
Me
"Natural Born Sucker since 77"
Ended things with Mike on Friday. And I am torn about it... Just to much shit going on in both our lives. He is trying to establish a relationship with his son, which I admire and respect. But at the same time he has NO time for me. Not to mention the fact he told me he has some "unresolved feelings" for his ex wife. Ya so I knew I had to walk away. We are suppose to go out Tuesday night and talk...my idea. I need to say a few things to him and I dont want to do it hiding behind a computer screen or on the other end of a phone.
Just the right love, but the wrong time.....
And now to Brian...
Well what can I say poor guy is still in Hell and probably will be for a LONG time. Went to see his dad last night and get a few braclets he had made up (like the LIVESTRONG ones but with Brian printed on them) talked to him for like an hour. Was sad...
So much emotion and anger inside and I dont blame him. Its not fair. Brian is fighting he told us which makes me happy. He also invited us up to see him sometime which made me happy as well. I want to see him now more than ever. Even though he has lost 27 pounds and looks like a ghost. I wanna hug him and just be near him. I hate saying this...but I just dont know how much longer he will be in my life.
This weekend should be good, I plan on being drunk most of the time so that should be fabulous! Johnny Gags is coming home from Vegas and we are having a block party Sunday like mini HS reunion. I am taking a collection for Brian at the party. All the money is going to Dana Farber in Brian's name. I told his dad about it and tears welled up in his eyes.
I swear the past few months...since February...have been so stressful! I havent been this unhappy in a LONG time. But Im just I dont know....Lost?
I am hoping that will all change sometime soon...sooner than later because if not I will need to be committed!
Write soon
Me
"Natural Born Sucker since 77"