When the light that keeps you warm is the truth you're counting on
So, I started off today grateful for my body and all the awesome stuff it can do, but that didn't last. Not that there's anything in particular wrong with my body or anything, but some stuff happened at work that I'm not going to elaborate on here because, well, past issues with work and public LJ entries, but suffice it to say my judgement was ambushed and questioned hard and I'm feeling really shaky about it. It's not that I'm suddenly questioning my judgement to pick my body as the thing I'm grateful for; I wish it was that simple. I tried to do what I thought was best and maybe screwed something up in that process. I honestly don't know. Thursday will tell me.
So, for today, I am grateful for what I am working to see as an opportunity to practice, practice, practice. This is really not something I can control. It's about the perceptions of others and while I can bend over backwards to try to control what they perceive (and I am doing exactly that to some extent, which is why I am a work in progress), there is ultimately only so much I can do. Getting angry that they don't share my perception gains me exactly nothing and in fact costs me precious energy. Wasteful, really. In the end, I am the only thing in this situation I can control. I can collect as much information as possible and work with that as I get it, but in the end, I am the only thing I can control. What's done is done. I gotta let that go and just keep moving forward, making the best decisions I can as I do so. On a good day, I am a bunny. On a bad day, I am still a bunny. Choosing to cultivate bunniness rather than anger may be what it takes to save all bunnies from extinction.
So, for today, I am grateful for what I am working to see as an opportunity to practice, practice, practice. This is really not something I can control. It's about the perceptions of others and while I can bend over backwards to try to control what they perceive (and I am doing exactly that to some extent, which is why I am a work in progress), there is ultimately only so much I can do. Getting angry that they don't share my perception gains me exactly nothing and in fact costs me precious energy. Wasteful, really. In the end, I am the only thing in this situation I can control. I can collect as much information as possible and work with that as I get it, but in the end, I am the only thing I can control. What's done is done. I gotta let that go and just keep moving forward, making the best decisions I can as I do so. On a good day, I am a bunny. On a bad day, I am still a bunny. Choosing to cultivate bunniness rather than anger may be what it takes to save all bunnies from extinction.