I liked shocking and confusing people I can relate to this.
Our family used to be such close friends with another family that they moved in part to be closer to us. Unfortuantly soon afterwards, because of my mother we basically stopped seeing them. My sister and I were young and not terribly able to keep in touch with our friends from that family. (We're actually starting to get back in touch with thme now, which is nice.) I wished for a while that I had friends as close, or even friends who were closer but as time went on I just adjusted to not having any perticularly close friends. For the last couple of year I've been generally happier alone than doing things with people, with the sometimes exception of my sister. Only with Jason do I almost always prefer to be with him rather than be alone. He's also closer to me than anyone has ever been. It's nice. I made myself to be someone who didn't need anyone else and always had a plan for when someone failed me. Now I'm starting to realize that while I am capable of doing it all on my own, I can do it all much better than someone else. My life can just be better and more successful when I rely on other people, and I'm starting to beleive that sometimes that is more important than the risk that they will fail me. I wonder why it hurts you so much abuot the friendships that are merely on hiatus? I can understand more about the ones that you know are gone, but if they're just on a break, even though it can be stressful, why is it quite so painful? I wish Ilived nearer to you and we could strike up a closer friendship. For me right now is just not a time that I have time to invest much or much more into friendships than I already am. However i'm really hoping that this will be less the case once the wedding is through. I'm actually really excited to see how friends dynamics will change once Jason is here all the time.
I wonder why it hurts you so much abuot the friendships that are merely on hiatus? I can understand more about the ones that you know are gone, but if they're just on a break, even though it can be stressful, why is it quite so painful?
It just hurt from loneliness; not the fact that they were on hiatus, but the fact that they were ALL ended or on indefinite hiatus, so I felt very alone.
Notice the past tense???? I neeeeeeed to post about this!!!!!!
I can relate to this.
Our family used to be such close friends with another family that they moved in part to be closer to us. Unfortuantly soon afterwards, because of my mother we basically stopped seeing them. My sister and I were young and not terribly able to keep in touch with our friends from that family. (We're actually starting to get back in touch with thme now, which is nice.) I wished for a while that I had friends as close, or even friends who were closer but as time went on I just adjusted to not having any perticularly close friends. For the last couple of year I've been generally happier alone than doing things with people, with the sometimes exception of my sister. Only with Jason do I almost always prefer to be with him rather than be alone. He's also closer to me than anyone has ever been. It's nice. I made myself to be someone who didn't need anyone else and always had a plan for when someone failed me. Now I'm starting to realize that while I am capable of doing it all on my own, I can do it all much better than someone else. My life can just be better and more successful when I rely on other people, and I'm starting to beleive that sometimes that is more important than the risk that they will fail me.
I wonder why it hurts you so much abuot the friendships that are merely on hiatus? I can understand more about the ones that you know are gone, but if they're just on a break, even though it can be stressful, why is it quite so painful?
I wish Ilived nearer to you and we could strike up a closer friendship. For me right now is just not a time that I have time to invest much or much more into friendships than I already am. However i'm really hoping that this will be less the case once the wedding is through. I'm actually really excited to see how friends dynamics will change once Jason is here all the time.
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It just hurt from loneliness; not the fact that they were on hiatus, but the fact that they were ALL ended or on indefinite hiatus, so I felt very alone.
Notice the past tense???? I neeeeeeed to post about this!!!!!!
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