wishing I could stop hiding altogether.... (spencer/paula)

[belenen]

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[evileve]

Very often the price of my openess has been losing someone I cared for.
As I got older I realized that telling everyone the truth is NOT a good idea, even though it makes me feel better, because the sad truth is that most people are NOT open and CAN'T handle it.
You know them and know what they can handle and how they would react, so act accordingly.
I know your pain and disappointment.

[eternitywaiting]

The both of you pretty much said what I was thinking

[belenen]

if you really want to be open with them, you have to understand and accept the VERY REAL possibility that you would further your own self-acceptance and openness at the cost of the relationships.

So true... and that's why it's so hard to decide. Be myself? or think that I am accepted and loved for who I am, when that might not be true? Even simpler, ask for the truth or just believe what may be a lie?

[belenen]

For me, it's easy to be open with strangers -- harder with those I have an emotional investment in from BEFORE I embarked on my quest to be transparent.

[mabels]

I agree with this...telling some things isnt even really important. Just because you model nude doesnt make you a different person inside...so it isnt nesessary to tell everyone about this part of your life.

[belenen]

well... it is a part of me, but that's a subject for another post.

[belenen]

thanks for your input... I can't wait for the time (that I believe will come) when I am strong enough to handle the possible rejection and just be totally me all the time. (I won't tell everything to everyone, but I won't hide anything either)