this one won't be as long, promise.......
well things are going as well as can be expected. got a lot on my mind all the time now.. many things too. so much to try and juggle at once, you know? good and bad. highs and lows. ups and downs. had a lot of shit hit me hard over the last 48 hours. on the brite side i've made what i'd like to think is a very dear and new friend. i met her inadvertantly through my boyfriend and i just love her to death. i've never met someone quite like her before. she is truely a blessed and gifted person. i can't wait to get to know her better. my trip ocean city with some of my bestest friends (and hopefully my love as well) is but 6 days away. woop woop!!! but i work every day this week in preperation.. ugh. oh well. there's always a silver lining. i just gotta look a little harder. i'm a little scared about what the next year will bring. i wish i didn't fear change so much. people go through change everyday. hell, i've gone through enough changes in my life.. in the last year even! this should be easy by now, right? so why? why am i so frightened? why can't i just let tomorrow become today and run its natural course... for all the things i've lived through nothing will break me. i just need to let go and as those i love say "no worries". hah......