I still think
if I could put myself
back together
screw by screw
bone to joint
undulating muscle
pulsating heart
it would make a difference

at least then
I would
have me

I am wonderfully exhausted today and missing France. Life here just seems to move along too quickly. I should be adjusted now, but I just keep thinking of the breeze on my face and the sun and the boats going in and out of the harbor. Maybe some day I'll be brave enough to make the change.

It has been a long time since I used this, but I feel a need again to send words out into the universe regardless of anyone being on the receiving end ( Read more... )

I have spent the better part of my day purging and refilling my iPod and it is strangely satisfying. Also, even though my internet has a giant red X on it I am still finding myself connected! Woot! It is so nice to have that internet I have been paying for again.

So, I haven't dated much in the last 3 years and it all goes back to a guy who really broke my heart into tiny bits. Like a miracle today, when I was feeling crappy and worthless for unrelated reasons, I bumped into him and his new gf. It was like looking in a mirror, only her hair was much shorter than mine. I knew he had this big hang up that ( Read more... )

I wore my shoes with no socks today and now my feet smell. I found this old journal from the summer after I graduated from HS and people had written all of this fantastic stuff about me. I had to laugh because it has probably been about 8 years since I spoke to most of them. I guess I am not so fantastic anymore huh? Hahahaha.

Once a year is apparently about what I am up to posting lately. I resolve to be better about using this livejournal thing like I was a million years ago when I started it. I am going to visit my family this weekend and my little goddaughter turns two, so it should be fun and there will be cake so who can argue with that!!

Despite having one of the longest days in some time, I was very surprised to have one of the best year end reviews of the last 3 years today. I am very hopeful that I can make this job work and that I can buy another year or so until I get things figured out. Now I am in bed, watching Frasier and drinking a delicious diet orange Sunkist and ( Read more... )

Sick, sick, sick...sick of being sick.  I have only left my bed to eat a bite out of a cheese sandwich and have a drink of water since 8am!  I really need to move around, but something tells me I will find myself right back here tomorrow morning!  Perhaps I will venture out to get my mail or something.  Also, there are all of these hellicoptors ( Read more... )

I need to get back into the swing of writing in this little journal thingie again. I am totally into 2007 and I have remembered to write it every day!! Today is my dad's birthday and I got him these awesome books and a video so he can learn how to play the Conga that my mom got him for Christmas. I can't wait until he has his first "concert ( Read more... )