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[beholdthechris]

my memory drains from my mind like the murky water from a swimming pool about to be cleaned

but my mind is never cleansed.

it weakens every waking moment. i can't stop it from fading away.

what is this . . . this confusion i seem to keep having?

like an endless ride on the carousel . . .
. . . taking me around in circles

i'm dizzy.
i just wish it would stop.

she makes me so happy.
    she makes me go crazy.
        she makes me go blank.
            she makes me just . . .
                         just . . . stop