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Someone (a boy) wrote in my honesty box, "I have a sneaking suspicion that you are a lesbian." I find this very funny, but I can't pinpoint why, exactly. Let's make a neat little list, shall we?
Could it be because...
1. I like girls (as well as boys), which I have been very open about?
2. I don't act like a traditional femme girl? (i.e. I am not boring; I think for myself; I don't rely on men to get me through)
3. I seem to be "overcompensating" by talking non-stop about my crushes? (I've always done this, and it's not compensation... I'm just talkative sometimes.)
4. Someone doesn't believe in bisexuality (what a dumb thing not to believe in - it's like not believing in toasters or trees), and is thus struggling to find a simpler label for me?
5. Some boy is pissed off that I haven't actively pursued him, so he accuses me of being a lesbian to make himself feel better?
There is always the off-chance that it was from Jamie, which would make sense, I guess. Ever since I came out, I've been obsessively ogling all the girls I'd never been "allowed" to before, so I haven't had much time to like guys. Thus it's conceivable that he began to make assumptions.
Still, though - I'm the only one who knows my crush history. I'm the only one who knows what/who I'm attracted to. So I'm the only one who can know my true sexual orientation, and be completely right about it.
I'm realizing more and more these days that a person's behaviour towards others is only ever a reflection of how they feel about themself. It really is, even if it's subconscious. That thought really comforts me.
Could it be because...
1. I like girls (as well as boys), which I have been very open about?
2. I don't act like a traditional femme girl? (i.e. I am not boring; I think for myself; I don't rely on men to get me through)
3. I seem to be "overcompensating" by talking non-stop about my crushes? (I've always done this, and it's not compensation... I'm just talkative sometimes.)
4. Someone doesn't believe in bisexuality (what a dumb thing not to believe in - it's like not believing in toasters or trees), and is thus struggling to find a simpler label for me?
5. Some boy is pissed off that I haven't actively pursued him, so he accuses me of being a lesbian to make himself feel better?
There is always the off-chance that it was from Jamie, which would make sense, I guess. Ever since I came out, I've been obsessively ogling all the girls I'd never been "allowed" to before, so I haven't had much time to like guys. Thus it's conceivable that he began to make assumptions.
Still, though - I'm the only one who knows my crush history. I'm the only one who knows what/who I'm attracted to. So I'm the only one who can know my true sexual orientation, and be completely right about it.
I'm realizing more and more these days that a person's behaviour towards others is only ever a reflection of how they feel about themself. It really is, even if it's subconscious. That thought really comforts me.