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Yes! The house is empty; I can journal.
So much going on right now. I don't know why I prefer typing this stuff out of my head to writing it down but I seem to have more success w/ LJ than with my boring old spiral-bound that I carry everywhere. Maybe it's the knowledge that I've got friends who may/may not be reading it. Maybe it's just that if it's open to the public, I get this sense that it's real. Like, if it's just in my notebook, it's still pretty introverted and, let's face it, things I think are often more skewed than things I say (write, in this case). Did that paragraph make sense to anyone? That's assuming that anyone read it, of course.
Maybe it's one of those thoughts that sounded better in my head.
: )
Anyways. I'm back in Atlanta now. Well, Decatur really. Back to hanging out w/ my mom which is getting more and more enjoyable. We are starting to have a really good relationship. At least it looks that way now. So praise be to God for that. Seriously, thank You God.
I've been getting more and more caught up in this whole college thing. I think I'm more prepared for stuff than most kids at my high school (My grades are good and I've got good test scores. Plus, I've done some research into colleges and financial aid and such.) but from the books I'm reading, I'm pretty sure that I'm not doing enough. I really really really really really want to go to the University of Texas at Austin. So much that it hurts. But I just keep thinking that my grades won't be good enough or that I won't get enough financial aid. That's the big one. If I don't get enough fin. aid, I can't go. My parents have made that pretty clear. They don't want me to come out of college with a lot of debt. Which I totally respect/agree with/appreciate, etc. But on the right side of my brain.............. I want to go there SO BAD. Austin is so wonderful. The more I look into UT, the more I realize it has everything I'm looking for in a school.
And Austin is such the bomb! It's like God just gathered up great people, delicious food, fabulous music, beautiful backdrops and just stuck them somewhere in Texas so that only people who REALLY looked for them could find them. Or something. You know, the state of Texas is awesome too. It's probably the most underestimated state in the country. Nobody takes Texas seriously. I like that about it.
And I'm going there in 9 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To visit colleges, visit friends, and go to camp. Praise God.
At least I know that even if I don't get in to UT, or if I don't amass enough scholarship money or whatever, that I'll still have friends there and hence, a reason to visit. And someday I AM going to live there.
What else is going on? I got my hair trimmed today... It looks the same, but an infinitesimal amount shorter. And a little neater. Yay.
I'm re-reading the Chronicles of Narnia b/c of that new movie that comes out this Christmas. (http://adisney.go.com/disneypictures/narnia/index.html) I'm on The Horse and His Boy. I've also just re-read the Harry Potter books, as the new one is coming out in a matter of mere days. (!!)
gotta go. there's food!
So much going on right now. I don't know why I prefer typing this stuff out of my head to writing it down but I seem to have more success w/ LJ than with my boring old spiral-bound that I carry everywhere. Maybe it's the knowledge that I've got friends who may/may not be reading it. Maybe it's just that if it's open to the public, I get this sense that it's real. Like, if it's just in my notebook, it's still pretty introverted and, let's face it, things I think are often more skewed than things I say (write, in this case). Did that paragraph make sense to anyone? That's assuming that anyone read it, of course.
Maybe it's one of those thoughts that sounded better in my head.
: )
Anyways. I'm back in Atlanta now. Well, Decatur really. Back to hanging out w/ my mom which is getting more and more enjoyable. We are starting to have a really good relationship. At least it looks that way now. So praise be to God for that. Seriously, thank You God.
I've been getting more and more caught up in this whole college thing. I think I'm more prepared for stuff than most kids at my high school (My grades are good and I've got good test scores. Plus, I've done some research into colleges and financial aid and such.) but from the books I'm reading, I'm pretty sure that I'm not doing enough. I really really really really really want to go to the University of Texas at Austin. So much that it hurts. But I just keep thinking that my grades won't be good enough or that I won't get enough financial aid. That's the big one. If I don't get enough fin. aid, I can't go. My parents have made that pretty clear. They don't want me to come out of college with a lot of debt. Which I totally respect/agree with/appreciate, etc. But on the right side of my brain.............. I want to go there SO BAD. Austin is so wonderful. The more I look into UT, the more I realize it has everything I'm looking for in a school.
And Austin is such the bomb! It's like God just gathered up great people, delicious food, fabulous music, beautiful backdrops and just stuck them somewhere in Texas so that only people who REALLY looked for them could find them. Or something. You know, the state of Texas is awesome too. It's probably the most underestimated state in the country. Nobody takes Texas seriously. I like that about it.
And I'm going there in 9 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To visit colleges, visit friends, and go to camp. Praise God.
At least I know that even if I don't get in to UT, or if I don't amass enough scholarship money or whatever, that I'll still have friends there and hence, a reason to visit. And someday I AM going to live there.
What else is going on? I got my hair trimmed today... It looks the same, but an infinitesimal amount shorter. And a little neater. Yay.
I'm re-reading the Chronicles of Narnia b/c of that new movie that comes out this Christmas. (http://adisney.go.com/disneypictures/narnia/index.html) I'm on The Horse and His Boy. I've also just re-read the Harry Potter books, as the new one is coming out in a matter of mere days. (!!)
gotta go. there's food!