It gets better . . .
Did I say roughly $2000 for auto-work? I'm sorry I mean roughly $3000. Apparently in addition to getting my struts replaced, two new tires and the oil changed on my car my power steering pump has a massive leak and needs to be replaced. A lot of the belts near it have been saturated with power steering fluid too and will need to be replaced as they are deteriorating. I should also probably get the other two tires taken care of while I'm at it, but that's another $250 or so that I don't want to spend right now. Dammit, dammit, dammit.
Y'know what else has a leak? My money pump. It's spraying money all over the place and driving up blood pressure, muscle tension, back pain, anxiety, irritability and stress head aches in my me. And the last thing, the LAST thing I want to do right now, is invest in any kind of medical expense to address any of those troubles. I feel so damn powerless and insecure right now with this financial drain and in turn that leads to me feeling angry and hopeless about it all. I'll probably feel better once this stick shock wears off, but as it is so much for having enough in savings to keep us alive for a couple months if I get laid off. So much for feeling like I can spend any money on myself what-so-ever. So much for climbing out of the pay-check to pay-check existence I've had since mid-December. Maybe I'd feel better if I had somebody to turn to hear in case of emergency, but I really don't. May parents have my sister in college to pay for, a mortgage, and my mother was laid off a few weeks ago. My wife's earning power is limited by virtue of time available to her (school is taking up a lot of it). My in-laws and any friend I can think of has way more debt than I do. Short of getting into debt (and I am terrified of debt) I am low on options if things don't settle here soon. God help me.
Y'know what else has a leak? My money pump. It's spraying money all over the place and driving up blood pressure, muscle tension, back pain, anxiety, irritability and stress head aches in my me. And the last thing, the LAST thing I want to do right now, is invest in any kind of medical expense to address any of those troubles. I feel so damn powerless and insecure right now with this financial drain and in turn that leads to me feeling angry and hopeless about it all. I'll probably feel better once this stick shock wears off, but as it is so much for having enough in savings to keep us alive for a couple months if I get laid off. So much for feeling like I can spend any money on myself what-so-ever. So much for climbing out of the pay-check to pay-check existence I've had since mid-December. Maybe I'd feel better if I had somebody to turn to hear in case of emergency, but I really don't. May parents have my sister in college to pay for, a mortgage, and my mother was laid off a few weeks ago. My wife's earning power is limited by virtue of time available to her (school is taking up a lot of it). My in-laws and any friend I can think of has way more debt than I do. Short of getting into debt (and I am terrified of debt) I am low on options if things don't settle here soon. God help me.