feelings + ivf
Ladies, Happy New Years (!) though I am all of 5 days late.
LJ has surly been a buzz amongst my friends. I’m not sure I can keep up but it’s great to see everyone around.
2006
Though I wasn’t able to do the thing I wanted to do most in 2006, I think it was an amazing year for me. I had a lot of great things happen, despite the most horrible vacation I have ever taken and a not so great visit from MIL. I honestly feel like it was a year filled with blessings I couldn’t have imagined. I’m not sure 2007 could top it… but I am willing to try. :)
home
We ended the year with one last home purchase that was desperately needed. I never mentioned it but we finally got our couch. The experience was not without drama but it seems to be over. (I hope!)
You could never tell from this photo but the couch is huge. Perhaps the angle is just bad because it seems to look like a love seat and it’s not (??)
I just love my wooden box in the window seal. People are always asking me what the box is. I guess it seems off but I purchased it long ago when I worked in an art gallery. Inside the lid it has a burnt letter of sorts that references where the wood is from. This particular box was part of the foundation of an old farm home that eventually could not support itself in the growing economy. It mentions how old the home was, the family that lived there and how this wood is all that is left. The whole concept just makes me feel weepy.
Our next major purchase should be a television stand but I’m just not happy with anything I’ve seen and we’ve searched everywhere imaginable. I think I’ll give up for now.
Also nightmareish is our lighting situation. Basically, we have none. I was ready to have someone come and do some random work-up but I’ve realized I really need to think this through and give it proper consideration. Problem is I know nothing about lighting and fun reading on the topic doesn’t seem to be an easy find. I think we might need to consider having someone come in and talk us through suggestions I just hate spending money on that.
Mostly I’m just ready to get something on the walls but I need to refrain from jumping the gun and get everything together, pick my pieces and decide on lighting. Oy, I hate this whole lighting issue. Oh, and I am obsessing over “pop.” The room is so boring and I need something to add some funk.
baby
AF seems to be here. All I wanted was to finally move forward and now that I have my period I’m just sad. I always thought there was a good chance I’d never get to this place because I’d get pregnant on that last cycle. I had a mini-cry today but I feel like I need a bigger one just o feel better and move forward.
Other then that I just feel sad and scared. Not scared over the procedure but at the thought of doing all the shots. I’ll have to post more on this later but I’m pretty certain Fred can’t do them. And I’m really scared of twins. But I’m more scared of having my first cycle fail.
I think I’ll bake cupcakes tomorrow. And perhaps I’ll wear my new, super cute, apron.
LJ has surly been a buzz amongst my friends. I’m not sure I can keep up but it’s great to see everyone around.
2006
Though I wasn’t able to do the thing I wanted to do most in 2006, I think it was an amazing year for me. I had a lot of great things happen, despite the most horrible vacation I have ever taken and a not so great visit from MIL. I honestly feel like it was a year filled with blessings I couldn’t have imagined. I’m not sure 2007 could top it… but I am willing to try. :)
home
We ended the year with one last home purchase that was desperately needed. I never mentioned it but we finally got our couch. The experience was not without drama but it seems to be over. (I hope!)
You could never tell from this photo but the couch is huge. Perhaps the angle is just bad because it seems to look like a love seat and it’s not (??)
I just love my wooden box in the window seal. People are always asking me what the box is. I guess it seems off but I purchased it long ago when I worked in an art gallery. Inside the lid it has a burnt letter of sorts that references where the wood is from. This particular box was part of the foundation of an old farm home that eventually could not support itself in the growing economy. It mentions how old the home was, the family that lived there and how this wood is all that is left. The whole concept just makes me feel weepy.
Our next major purchase should be a television stand but I’m just not happy with anything I’ve seen and we’ve searched everywhere imaginable. I think I’ll give up for now.
Also nightmareish is our lighting situation. Basically, we have none. I was ready to have someone come and do some random work-up but I’ve realized I really need to think this through and give it proper consideration. Problem is I know nothing about lighting and fun reading on the topic doesn’t seem to be an easy find. I think we might need to consider having someone come in and talk us through suggestions I just hate spending money on that.
Mostly I’m just ready to get something on the walls but I need to refrain from jumping the gun and get everything together, pick my pieces and decide on lighting. Oy, I hate this whole lighting issue. Oh, and I am obsessing over “pop.” The room is so boring and I need something to add some funk.
baby
AF seems to be here. All I wanted was to finally move forward and now that I have my period I’m just sad. I always thought there was a good chance I’d never get to this place because I’d get pregnant on that last cycle. I had a mini-cry today but I feel like I need a bigger one just o feel better and move forward.
Other then that I just feel sad and scared. Not scared over the procedure but at the thought of doing all the shots. I’ll have to post more on this later but I’m pretty certain Fred can’t do them. And I’m really scared of twins. But I’m more scared of having my first cycle fail.
I think I’ll bake cupcakes tomorrow. And perhaps I’ll wear my new, super cute, apron.