Trusting
My mom finally redeemed herself partially. She told me Monday she was sending me $100. At first, I didn't believe her, b/c she always lies and I'm way too trusting to just give up, I believe her time after time. Then like a few months ago, I finally gave up on my mother. It was really hard. But Monday I thought that it was time to let her back in and today I got a money order for $100! I'm so happy, b/c I still don't have a job and I have 3 bills to pay. This covers 2 of them and next week my aunt is sending me 100 more that I can put toward my rent :) I'm so happy, but at the same time, my mother is still stupid.
She just told me last week that her new husband, my stepfather, who's an ex con, did crack again. Reader's digest version: He was in jail the first time for selling and he was addicted. Then, when he got out of prison, he started going to church and met my mom, then he violated his paroll and got sent back to prison. And when he got out this June (7 years later) he promised to be a different man, a preacher now. Someone please help me understand the hypocracy here?!! Yeah so his excuse is that he and my mom were fighting. BUllSHIT!!! I told her mom, just tell his parol officer and he'll drug test him, he'll get sent right back to prison and u can send him the divorce papers. But no, the money is too good. its too important, he works, she doesn't. Typical. But now she's gonna ruin her life and I'm just gonna sit back and watch, b/c my physically and mentally tired of taking care of my mother the way I have, I've supported her financially and emotionally - always being her shoulder to cry on when she's never done that for me. I've been more of a mother to her than she has to me. I'm going to still talk to her and support her the best I can, but now there's nothing else I can do. She's brought this upon herself.
So to trust or not to trust?
She just told me last week that her new husband, my stepfather, who's an ex con, did crack again. Reader's digest version: He was in jail the first time for selling and he was addicted. Then, when he got out of prison, he started going to church and met my mom, then he violated his paroll and got sent back to prison. And when he got out this June (7 years later) he promised to be a different man, a preacher now. Someone please help me understand the hypocracy here?!! Yeah so his excuse is that he and my mom were fighting. BUllSHIT!!! I told her mom, just tell his parol officer and he'll drug test him, he'll get sent right back to prison and u can send him the divorce papers. But no, the money is too good. its too important, he works, she doesn't. Typical. But now she's gonna ruin her life and I'm just gonna sit back and watch, b/c my physically and mentally tired of taking care of my mother the way I have, I've supported her financially and emotionally - always being her shoulder to cry on when she's never done that for me. I've been more of a mother to her than she has to me. I'm going to still talk to her and support her the best I can, but now there's nothing else I can do. She's brought this upon herself.
So to trust or not to trust?