I dont know what i got myself into
I'm so homesick. I don't know what I got myself into. I know I need to grow up and get out on my own but I realized I've been homesick even before I left, I didn't want to leave, but I knew I had to so I just suppressed the feelings. It sucks its like everyone is new, everything is new, and I dont know anything. Steph and I are both emotional right now and she gets mean and I dont know what to do. My emotions are going crazy. And I hate not being able to control my emotions. Its worse than usual. Its like today I cried for an hour and yesterday I couldnt stop yelling at Paul. I don't know what to do. My mom said she was going to pay my rent and shes avoiding my calls and my pay check is running out. Oh yeah speaking of, I got jipped 100 from my pay! I was pissed and they told me that they have to wait til next paycheck but I need it now b/c my rent is due in like 3 days. Im fucked. And I can't ask my dad b/c he just wrote a check for my tuition which was like 1,315, and another $637 for my books (including a calculator and a sweater). I have to take a cab to school b/c my car is in the shop - still no license but I'm gonna get that asap. Steph got a speeding ticket today and shes scared she might lose her license, which would suck, cuz then we'd have no means of transportation!
Good news is, I started math and sociology today. My math teacher is really nice; she seems very genuine, and she said if we get tutors then we can get like 150 extra credit points. I met this really nice girl in my math class too. There's a lot of people here that already know each other and everything, they look at me as if I'm an alien or something, this girl told me alot of the people that go here are from the area and to keep my mouth shut b/c everyone likes to spread everyones business quick - small towns, I guess. The socio. teacher is nice but he's like kinda weird, we practically spent the entire day talking about his life. I was like, what about the class? Tomorrow I only have 1 class and its biology. Hopefully everything goes okay, I'm looking forward to meeting new people, but I'm so shy.
Good news is, I started math and sociology today. My math teacher is really nice; she seems very genuine, and she said if we get tutors then we can get like 150 extra credit points. I met this really nice girl in my math class too. There's a lot of people here that already know each other and everything, they look at me as if I'm an alien or something, this girl told me alot of the people that go here are from the area and to keep my mouth shut b/c everyone likes to spread everyones business quick - small towns, I guess. The socio. teacher is nice but he's like kinda weird, we practically spent the entire day talking about his life. I was like, what about the class? Tomorrow I only have 1 class and its biology. Hopefully everything goes okay, I'm looking forward to meeting new people, but I'm so shy.