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I'm really sad and confused now. I don't know really what to do but I kind of feel hopeless. My life has no direction. I'm not taking a year off school as that idea was directly shot down by the person I told that to. Yet I keep getting pressured to choose what I want to be. I started kidding around and said I wanted to be a "jack of all trades". No laughs at that one. Just stares and immediate questions as to where they would've gone wrong.
I just don't know. I'm stressing myself when I have a while to think about it but in reality, we don't really have that much time. Applying for college in junior year. It's the almost end of freshman year. WE have to have some kind of direction by junior year. @*&$.
I just want someone to tell me what I should be. I need a sign. Funny thing is, last time I asked for a sign I got a huge one. Maybe it'll work again this time.
I just feel like there's got to be more to life than school and getting straight A's. There has to be. I kind of like accounting, yet burying myself in numbers every day is a stiff suit job. Good money, great security, a good profession yet there has to be more to life. But I'm only 15. I just wish someone would point me in that right direction that would give me the creative expression I want with the professional work environment that I want as well.
I would steal Atoosa's job. She's the editor of Seventeen magazine. As I was typing that, I realized how young that sounded. I hate that. But think about how a great combination that is. You get to put together ideas in a creative and innovative way, work with people, be a business person in working with your advertising and organizing everything, live in a great big city, everything you could want. It's the most perfect job. But chances are, I will not be taking Atoosa's job. Maybe I could intern there. Or go out for Miss Seventeen. Pssh, as if. But that would be my perfect job right there.
I just don't know. I'm stressing myself when I have a while to think about it but in reality, we don't really have that much time. Applying for college in junior year. It's the almost end of freshman year. WE have to have some kind of direction by junior year. @*&$.
I just want someone to tell me what I should be. I need a sign. Funny thing is, last time I asked for a sign I got a huge one. Maybe it'll work again this time.
I just feel like there's got to be more to life than school and getting straight A's. There has to be. I kind of like accounting, yet burying myself in numbers every day is a stiff suit job. Good money, great security, a good profession yet there has to be more to life. But I'm only 15. I just wish someone would point me in that right direction that would give me the creative expression I want with the professional work environment that I want as well.
I would steal Atoosa's job. She's the editor of Seventeen magazine. As I was typing that, I realized how young that sounded. I hate that. But think about how a great combination that is. You get to put together ideas in a creative and innovative way, work with people, be a business person in working with your advertising and organizing everything, live in a great big city, everything you could want. It's the most perfect job. But chances are, I will not be taking Atoosa's job. Maybe I could intern there. Or go out for Miss Seventeen. Pssh, as if. But that would be my perfect job right there.