homesickness
I honestly don't know why I am so damn homesick because I don't want to go to my house. I want to be in Saginaw and see everyone and be with my family, but I don't want to specifically be at my house. It really is not my house anymore. I will never live there again. I am not going to be living with my parents after school, so in essence it is my temporary storage facility.
I miss everyone so much, and I feel extremely lost with myself in the world right now. None of the people I thought were good friends from last year call me this year. I have one remaining friend from the previous year that I still see and talk to on a regular basis. I just want to be done with it all. I am stressed and frustrated and extremely sad.
I am planning on graduating next year. Next fucking year. Why? I have this undying belief that I have to be better than everyone else to even be considered successful. I can't ever be good enough for my own standards. Isn't that depressing.
I am working on it. I really am. I don't want it to be like this forever. I just need someone to call and tell me they love me for me, and no matter what I do in life they will always love me. Yeah. I need that.
I miss everyone so much, and I feel extremely lost with myself in the world right now. None of the people I thought were good friends from last year call me this year. I have one remaining friend from the previous year that I still see and talk to on a regular basis. I just want to be done with it all. I am stressed and frustrated and extremely sad.
I am planning on graduating next year. Next fucking year. Why? I have this undying belief that I have to be better than everyone else to even be considered successful. I can't ever be good enough for my own standards. Isn't that depressing.
I am working on it. I really am. I don't want it to be like this forever. I just need someone to call and tell me they love me for me, and no matter what I do in life they will always love me. Yeah. I need that.