Aren't you proud of me?  I've been writing a lot ( Read more... )

Dear readers, I tagged every single one of my entries for you yesterday.  I left some of them like the writers block topics and I put a meme tag on all the meme questions I answered, but I might go back and categorize them too someday.

I had forgotten I started this journal with the intent of it being a depressed mom's blog.  That's pretty much what ( Read more... )

Things never seem to change with me.  Every time they do change I'm just not comfortable with it and I go back to my old ways.  I don't understand myself and I don't know if I ever will ( Read more... )

It's like I've given up.  I know I'm being a shitty mom, wife, and person in general.  But I feel so defeated sometimes.  It's like when I try it all backfires or goes unnoticed.  I don't understand it.  I want to hug my son, hold my husband.  But it's like they slip through my fingers like sand, get the wrong idea, think I'm smothering them.  They ( Read more... )

I meant to tell my therapist yesterday that I would not be seeing her anymore.  She usually just sits and listens to me.  She doesn't offer any help for my problems, and she can't remember my family members' names or many specific details from appointment to appointment.  Sure, we only meet once a month, but doesn't she have a cheat sheet she could ( Read more... )