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I'm so tired of being in the midst of your confusion. appology after appology and i can't take it anymore. the untrustedness from you, the put-downs, the breaks, the restraint. you finished it last night, now don't go back on what you said. i'm tired of being your puppet, you've cut the strings... now i'm prepared to burn them. i don't want to be at your utmost control anymore.
on another note, me and samira are going to pamper ourselves after school today and chat about girl things. maybe do some much needed shopping/bonding. i've missed her and i did realize i had been neglectant when i shouldn't have been, i was just to caught up in myself to realize how bad she needed me, and i do love her. she's my real family.
in the computer lab now just finishing up my 3rd word project, blaah to that.
i don't think i want another serious relationship for a while. i'm not ready yet to feel again.
i hope brandon comes through i want to get SOMETHING pierced... i know i'm ill-advised to do it by like, everyone i've spoken to, but idk, if i don't like it, than i will remove it. w/e, it's my decision.
<3bekah
on another note, me and samira are going to pamper ourselves after school today and chat about girl things. maybe do some much needed shopping/bonding. i've missed her and i did realize i had been neglectant when i shouldn't have been, i was just to caught up in myself to realize how bad she needed me, and i do love her. she's my real family.
in the computer lab now just finishing up my 3rd word project, blaah to that.
i don't think i want another serious relationship for a while. i'm not ready yet to feel again.
i hope brandon comes through i want to get SOMETHING pierced... i know i'm ill-advised to do it by like, everyone i've spoken to, but idk, if i don't like it, than i will remove it. w/e, it's my decision.
<3bekah