i'm back
i made it back although it ended up taking us 18 hours to get home yesterday! horrifying!
i like this whole tomato recall situation. i don't have to say "no tomato" because no one is serving them anyway. i've known it my whole life, those nasty little slimy fruits just cause trouble.
i have self diagnosed myself as having chronic tension headaches. i have headaches EVERY day of my life. it started out happening when my body was in some lacking state like i was hungry or tired or pms-ing. now i have them at almost every moment of the day. i can no longer take just 2 motrin, i need at least 3 about 3 times day and even then I still have a milder version of the headache i started with. i can feel them coming on and if i drug myself or eat something right away it helps a little, but i certainly can't eat whenever i have a headache or i'll expand and then be even more miserable as a fat girl with only milder chronic headaches.
speaking of fat, after this vacation with my parents i witnessed the brainwashing my mother has put me through my whole life. i only recognized it this time because i've recently decided that my body issues are completely connected to the comments and opinions of my mother. she is so judging of people who are overweight. we were sitting in the airport and a couple walked by and she says "just look at that couple over there" and there was nothing to look at because they were just normal people walking, but they were overweight and that was all she was pointing out. i just hunched my shoulders and ignored her. she's made these comments all my life, heck we would watch the miss america pageant just to make fun of the girls' fat asses or big noses. i took off my clothes over my bathing suit and i could hear her saying something about me to my grandma, i know she was saying something to her about my body while i was in the pool but i couldn't hear what she said. after i got out she started saying how my sister had put on a lot of weight and her kids were really fat too. they aren't even fat and i said that too her. just another reason i will never get along with my mother. i worry most that these comments are coming out of her mouth around my daughter and i know they are.
another observation i had while spending a week with my mother is how old she is starting to seem. she kept forgetting things, like she fixed herself a plate for dinner and set it down outside, then went back inside to help my grandma and came out with another plate of dinner for herself, forgetting that she had already done that exact thing less than 5 minutes before. my grandma has definitely shrunk a lot since i saw her last, being 90 years old that is understandable, but seeing my mother next to her, my mother isn't much bigger and now that i think of it she seems to be shrinking too. i guess i could blame her insanity on old age, but the fact that she has always acted insane doesn't make that a strong argument.
i like this whole tomato recall situation. i don't have to say "no tomato" because no one is serving them anyway. i've known it my whole life, those nasty little slimy fruits just cause trouble.
i have self diagnosed myself as having chronic tension headaches. i have headaches EVERY day of my life. it started out happening when my body was in some lacking state like i was hungry or tired or pms-ing. now i have them at almost every moment of the day. i can no longer take just 2 motrin, i need at least 3 about 3 times day and even then I still have a milder version of the headache i started with. i can feel them coming on and if i drug myself or eat something right away it helps a little, but i certainly can't eat whenever i have a headache or i'll expand and then be even more miserable as a fat girl with only milder chronic headaches.
speaking of fat, after this vacation with my parents i witnessed the brainwashing my mother has put me through my whole life. i only recognized it this time because i've recently decided that my body issues are completely connected to the comments and opinions of my mother. she is so judging of people who are overweight. we were sitting in the airport and a couple walked by and she says "just look at that couple over there" and there was nothing to look at because they were just normal people walking, but they were overweight and that was all she was pointing out. i just hunched my shoulders and ignored her. she's made these comments all my life, heck we would watch the miss america pageant just to make fun of the girls' fat asses or big noses. i took off my clothes over my bathing suit and i could hear her saying something about me to my grandma, i know she was saying something to her about my body while i was in the pool but i couldn't hear what she said. after i got out she started saying how my sister had put on a lot of weight and her kids were really fat too. they aren't even fat and i said that too her. just another reason i will never get along with my mother. i worry most that these comments are coming out of her mouth around my daughter and i know they are.
another observation i had while spending a week with my mother is how old she is starting to seem. she kept forgetting things, like she fixed herself a plate for dinner and set it down outside, then went back inside to help my grandma and came out with another plate of dinner for herself, forgetting that she had already done that exact thing less than 5 minutes before. my grandma has definitely shrunk a lot since i saw her last, being 90 years old that is understandable, but seeing my mother next to her, my mother isn't much bigger and now that i think of it she seems to be shrinking too. i guess i could blame her insanity on old age, but the fact that she has always acted insane doesn't make that a strong argument.