Goodbye to friendships, and more.
So, I have turned 21! That is good news. I spent my birthday with Phil, since most of my other friends could not make it for my birthday, and I had a blast. He really tried to make it special, and I appreciate it
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You do bring up a lot of good points - Such as people grow a part; but it doesn't mean they can't still come together and be friends. I suppose it also depends on how deep that friendship was, and how close you were. In this case, we dated, slept together, and were really close for a long time. It is hard to come from that, to what it is now, and it is hard for me not to feel bitter or to not want to be friends with him anymore. When we do get together, those few times, he avoids me, and barely speaks to me, even when I try my hardest to spend time with him - as friends. I can't help but to give up, and not want anything to do with him anymore. It's draining, and very hurtful.
..Is that wrong? I am sorry, but I have waited for him for a long time. Why should I wait? Why should I? While other things take precedence, and they should, why should I wait for someone to catch up? I've waited a long time. Would waiting mean you miss part of your life? And yes, they shouldn't live your life; they should live their own.
My thoughts are slightly scrambled; but I know he is busy with his family, his girlfriend, his life - but, so am I. (well, not the girlfriend) but I'm living my life, and seeming to incorporate him into it every now and again - why is it so much to ask for the same?
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