Goodbye to friendships, and more.
So, I have turned 21! That is good news. I spent my birthday with Phil, since most of my other friends could not make it for my birthday, and I had a blast. He really tried to make it special, and I appreciate it.
My laptop has died. Sad. Especially since I'm now taking all online classes. Oh well. Much more has happened, but I will not go into detail. Hopefully everything will work out.
I have officially said goodbye to my friendship with Josh. I deleted him from my myspace, and I highly doubt he noticed; which is fine with me. After all of these years, I just find absolutely no point in continuing a one sided friendship. He does not give a shit about me, hasn't for awhile, and I'm sick of trying. He has Ashleigh. That's apparently all he needs. Well, good for him. Hope he's happy. And I'm more than sure she's quite happy with this decision of mine. God knows she's been out to kill me from day 1. Well, she can go fuck herself. Because, well, I know for a fact she knows so little of what Josh thinks. And at this point, I wish I could tell her everything. Not like it would matter; she would accept him back anyway. And, well, blame me for everything. It takes two to tango, honey. But, it's done, and over with. He's out of my life, and I'm glad for it. Our friendship has been dissipating for awhile.. Ash helped it go faster, but she isn't the complete reason. Oddly enough, he's made me not care anymore; since he only cares about himself. Last time I was home, he ackwledged my presence for a whole two minutes - after I asked him to spend a little time with me, since I hadn't seen him in awhile. Oh, well, that's too much to ask apparently. And of course, she was there, and so it was pointless to respond. It hurts, and it sucks, but you know what? I have a new life here, and I'm not going to hold on.
..What's even funnier, is that I know when shit starts falling apart for him, especially in his relationship with Ashleigh, he'll come running back to me. He always does, and he probably always will. Except, I'm not goingh to be his fall back anymore. He can be miserable by himself with the choices he chose.
I just wrote Lance an email as well. We aren't on great terms since he decided not to come to my birthday. And he had every means to come. Plus, he used the excuse, "Justine can't come, I can't either". When it should register in his head that it was MORE important for that fact alone. Then, he couldn't stop to see me on his way to TX, which is entirely the point of him coming to my birthday. *sigh* Whatever.
I'm saying goodbye to a lot of friendships. It is not worth it to me anymore to try so hard and be shit on because of it.
At any rate, I'm done randomy ranting for the night.
My laptop has died. Sad. Especially since I'm now taking all online classes. Oh well. Much more has happened, but I will not go into detail. Hopefully everything will work out.
I have officially said goodbye to my friendship with Josh. I deleted him from my myspace, and I highly doubt he noticed; which is fine with me. After all of these years, I just find absolutely no point in continuing a one sided friendship. He does not give a shit about me, hasn't for awhile, and I'm sick of trying. He has Ashleigh. That's apparently all he needs. Well, good for him. Hope he's happy. And I'm more than sure she's quite happy with this decision of mine. God knows she's been out to kill me from day 1. Well, she can go fuck herself. Because, well, I know for a fact she knows so little of what Josh thinks. And at this point, I wish I could tell her everything. Not like it would matter; she would accept him back anyway. And, well, blame me for everything. It takes two to tango, honey. But, it's done, and over with. He's out of my life, and I'm glad for it. Our friendship has been dissipating for awhile.. Ash helped it go faster, but she isn't the complete reason. Oddly enough, he's made me not care anymore; since he only cares about himself. Last time I was home, he ackwledged my presence for a whole two minutes - after I asked him to spend a little time with me, since I hadn't seen him in awhile. Oh, well, that's too much to ask apparently. And of course, she was there, and so it was pointless to respond. It hurts, and it sucks, but you know what? I have a new life here, and I'm not going to hold on.
..What's even funnier, is that I know when shit starts falling apart for him, especially in his relationship with Ashleigh, he'll come running back to me. He always does, and he probably always will. Except, I'm not goingh to be his fall back anymore. He can be miserable by himself with the choices he chose.
I just wrote Lance an email as well. We aren't on great terms since he decided not to come to my birthday. And he had every means to come. Plus, he used the excuse, "Justine can't come, I can't either". When it should register in his head that it was MORE important for that fact alone. Then, he couldn't stop to see me on his way to TX, which is entirely the point of him coming to my birthday. *sigh* Whatever.
I'm saying goodbye to a lot of friendships. It is not worth it to me anymore to try so hard and be shit on because of it.
At any rate, I'm done randomy ranting for the night.