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ok so it has been like 5 days since my surgery and i was feeling so much better but then tonight my throat is like f**k you! aahh it hurts lol. i didnt think it was going to be this bad! wow. ok so heres the real reason im writing. because i got my tonsils out, i have had a lot of time to think and i have done alot of thinking and i didnt come up with anything profound or the meaning of the universe or anything but for some reason i realized that i seem to get with my friends guys. i mean its a trend. they are never with them at the time that i do anything but it just seems to happen. its not like its a radom hookup either its like they are my best friend and we have gotten to be such good friends that we do stuff and like its like i seem to be the interum girl its so weird. i mean it happened this summer and omg do i regret it but im not gunna get into that again. i get to college and my friend is best friends with this guy and they met at crew camp and have known each other for years and went to each others jr and sr proms and stuff and just ended up at the same college for crew. so they are together the beginning of the year as fuck friends and i became really good friends with him and then they like i guess broke it off cause he felt that she was treating him just as a peice of ass (which she was) and then we started hooking up... my best friends "ex-friend" sounds fermiliar. that put me on weird terms with her for a while and we are ok now but me and the guy are no more lol needless to say...they might be getting back together lol. then after that ends i come home for thanksgiving and soemthing happens with one of my friends who has broken up with his girlfriend (also my friend) but of course they got back together by the end of that weekend.
Am i just that girl who everyone gets with to realize that they want to be with who they are with? will i ever get to be the girl that the guy goes back to? i wish i could know the answers to this. but no i just have to go on with my random drunk hookups and RBHs lol (Random Bio Hookups) haha crew crew....although my plethora of random hook ups has placed me at the #1 position of the Crew Crew, is that where i really wanna be? the leader of a group of friends where the status is placed on the amount of guys you have gotten with? or how many walks of shame you have preformed? no i want what every girl wants, the guy to come back to her, not that guy at Wesleyan that says "Hey im never gunna see you again, lets go upstairs" AH lets be serious!! or being the girl who your friend calls over saying "blueshirt guy is a good kisser, and you are a good kisser, kiss him" and then she pushed our heads together and consequently he was known as blueshirt/good kisser boy i mean yeah its so much fun and you dont have to worry about anyone else and it makes for great morning after stories but i also want that person i can just go back to the dorm with and lay with and not have to go out and be drunk and free to get with them. Especially not have to worry about the ex-girlfriend finding out and having to deal with the concequences of that and not having to hate having gotten with them when you find out that they are back together.
ok well that was a lot of rambling and although i know that only 3 people read it so it doesnt really matter lol i just wanted to say all of that Bleh!!
Am i just that girl who everyone gets with to realize that they want to be with who they are with? will i ever get to be the girl that the guy goes back to? i wish i could know the answers to this. but no i just have to go on with my random drunk hookups and RBHs lol (Random Bio Hookups) haha crew crew....although my plethora of random hook ups has placed me at the #1 position of the Crew Crew, is that where i really wanna be? the leader of a group of friends where the status is placed on the amount of guys you have gotten with? or how many walks of shame you have preformed? no i want what every girl wants, the guy to come back to her, not that guy at Wesleyan that says "Hey im never gunna see you again, lets go upstairs" AH lets be serious!! or being the girl who your friend calls over saying "blueshirt guy is a good kisser, and you are a good kisser, kiss him" and then she pushed our heads together and consequently he was known as blueshirt/good kisser boy i mean yeah its so much fun and you dont have to worry about anyone else and it makes for great morning after stories but i also want that person i can just go back to the dorm with and lay with and not have to go out and be drunk and free to get with them. Especially not have to worry about the ex-girlfriend finding out and having to deal with the concequences of that and not having to hate having gotten with them when you find out that they are back together.
ok well that was a lot of rambling and although i know that only 3 people read it so it doesnt really matter lol i just wanted to say all of that Bleh!!