Things...
Main news is my cousin committed suicide at the weekend. I should be sad about it as he was one person I was close to but I'm not. In fact the comments I made have resulted in me not being invited to his funeral or even being spoken to by most of my family (not necessarily a bad thing that!). I should be upset. I am not. Not at all.
One less member of my family in the world.
CPN tommorow. No feelings to talk about. Not seeing/phoning anyone, freaking out when I do but not freaking out with feelings just freaking out. Totally exhausted (by that I mean my entire body feels totally strung out) because of not sleeping much, when I do I have really wierd off the wall dreams. Last night I was conducting a major orchestra where all the players were serial killers and the TV series Stargate was being filmed next door.
What do you talk about in counselling when you feel nothing?!