I hate this town more and more every day ....
And since I've promised to play nice with the children on Fet, I'm about to have a complete and utter breakdown here Nobody's identity protected, gloves are being pulled off. No nothing. I'm done.
A) I went to the bar last week. Not only was will *incredibly distant* Brandon wouldn't even speak to me. When I was around, she'd walk away, wouldn't make eye contact, nothing. She did everything but fucking kick me out of the bar. I was obviously unwelcome, others were distant, so I left. I get home, got pissed but eventaully let it go. A few days ago I was bored looking through profiles and came upon hers. It said "I guess you reap what you fucking sow... And when you sow drama, malicious lies, and vitriol, then the results are nobody wants you around. Welcome to the karmic circle" What Vitriol? What lies? What drama. Ugh. I haven't said anything to ANYONE that wasn't true. Did I befriend his exgf? Yes. But she came to me. What was I supposed to do? Tell her to go fuck off? So I realized that was posted the day I showed up at the bar. I immediately came home and blocked all of them off of fet. If you wanna treat me like a piece of shit, fine. But you're not going to *easily* be able to lurk on my profile anymore either. Apparently this made Will get his panties in a wad. Fine, go talk to your wife about how to treat people, asshole.
B) I posted on RSVP that I was going to the Noble auction and that people should meet up and support our other local communities. There's no RSVP function this weekend, no nothing. I got emails every which way and apparently Robin received several on my behalf. Whatever. I don't know whether I believe that or not but fuck. I was just trying to get folks to meet up with me in nola. I didn't think that was an offense so horrific that it should cause me to have to send drama-ridden emails all day. Apparently, it wasn't the fact that i wanted folks to meet me there as much as it was the fact that I *gasp* mentioned that they'd moved their auction so it wouldn't conflict with RSVP's .... ummmm .... well, they did. Why the hell is this something that should cause drama? Why should it matter? I thought it was nice that they moved it, i was trying to get us to support them (though I"m feeling more and more like I belong to "them" everyday....).... but instead ... I get ... MORE DRAMA.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO???
Its like people go ... oh look, Rebecca's Happy ... lets fuck that up for her ... its like people see me happy and it eats them alive. I'd get it if that was the case with Will and Brandon. Fine. Immature maybe but I'd get it. Why does it seem like the RSVP hierarchy hate me so fucking hard? WTF HAVE I EVER DONE TO THEM? This is less than 24 hours after I sent both of them an email asking for advice in regards to daddy. I was reaching out an olive branch. I didn't give a fuck what they had to say about it, but I was being respectful, and I was TRYING.
I've never seen either of them try. When something upsets Aurora, she makes an emo status message post and gets pissed off. Instead of shooting me an email, telling me she's upset, trying to discuss it like levelheaded, mature adults, she turns into a whiny child. I don't know .... I'm just PISSED.
I've done nothing but try and try and try and its never good enough for them. Its not as if i'm the only strong dominant female personality in that group, why do *I* get singled out? I'm not asking to be buddy buddy with them like we used to be, I just don't want to feel like every time I turn around I'm going to be blasted for something I've done or said.
So Daddy tells me to keep my mouth shut. He tells me to play nice with the children. He tells me if I do, he'll bring me back a sparkley. So I'm venting this here.
I don't know.... I want to move to nola, get the hell away from this drama ridden shithole.
Auction Saturday at Noble should be interesting ... much of my new family, Daddy's Son (my escort) will be there and all of the noble family I've accumulated over the past several months will be there. Oh, and ..... as well as Will and his harem. I dare them to try and fucking treat me like a piece of shit again. I dare them.
My only question is how petty do I get? Do I wear the corset he bought me? Yeah .... I didn't think so. I'm more adult than that. Though it is really fucking tempting.
A) I went to the bar last week. Not only was will *incredibly distant* Brandon wouldn't even speak to me. When I was around, she'd walk away, wouldn't make eye contact, nothing. She did everything but fucking kick me out of the bar. I was obviously unwelcome, others were distant, so I left. I get home, got pissed but eventaully let it go. A few days ago I was bored looking through profiles and came upon hers. It said "I guess you reap what you fucking sow... And when you sow drama, malicious lies, and vitriol, then the results are nobody wants you around. Welcome to the karmic circle" What Vitriol? What lies? What drama. Ugh. I haven't said anything to ANYONE that wasn't true. Did I befriend his exgf? Yes. But she came to me. What was I supposed to do? Tell her to go fuck off? So I realized that was posted the day I showed up at the bar. I immediately came home and blocked all of them off of fet. If you wanna treat me like a piece of shit, fine. But you're not going to *easily* be able to lurk on my profile anymore either. Apparently this made Will get his panties in a wad. Fine, go talk to your wife about how to treat people, asshole.
B) I posted on RSVP that I was going to the Noble auction and that people should meet up and support our other local communities. There's no RSVP function this weekend, no nothing. I got emails every which way and apparently Robin received several on my behalf. Whatever. I don't know whether I believe that or not but fuck. I was just trying to get folks to meet up with me in nola. I didn't think that was an offense so horrific that it should cause me to have to send drama-ridden emails all day. Apparently, it wasn't the fact that i wanted folks to meet me there as much as it was the fact that I *gasp* mentioned that they'd moved their auction so it wouldn't conflict with RSVP's .... ummmm .... well, they did. Why the hell is this something that should cause drama? Why should it matter? I thought it was nice that they moved it, i was trying to get us to support them (though I"m feeling more and more like I belong to "them" everyday....).... but instead ... I get ... MORE DRAMA.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO???
Its like people go ... oh look, Rebecca's Happy ... lets fuck that up for her ... its like people see me happy and it eats them alive. I'd get it if that was the case with Will and Brandon. Fine. Immature maybe but I'd get it. Why does it seem like the RSVP hierarchy hate me so fucking hard? WTF HAVE I EVER DONE TO THEM? This is less than 24 hours after I sent both of them an email asking for advice in regards to daddy. I was reaching out an olive branch. I didn't give a fuck what they had to say about it, but I was being respectful, and I was TRYING.
I've never seen either of them try. When something upsets Aurora, she makes an emo status message post and gets pissed off. Instead of shooting me an email, telling me she's upset, trying to discuss it like levelheaded, mature adults, she turns into a whiny child. I don't know .... I'm just PISSED.
I've done nothing but try and try and try and its never good enough for them. Its not as if i'm the only strong dominant female personality in that group, why do *I* get singled out? I'm not asking to be buddy buddy with them like we used to be, I just don't want to feel like every time I turn around I'm going to be blasted for something I've done or said.
So Daddy tells me to keep my mouth shut. He tells me to play nice with the children. He tells me if I do, he'll bring me back a sparkley. So I'm venting this here.
I don't know.... I want to move to nola, get the hell away from this drama ridden shithole.
Auction Saturday at Noble should be interesting ... much of my new family, Daddy's Son (my escort) will be there and all of the noble family I've accumulated over the past several months will be there. Oh, and ..... as well as Will and his harem. I dare them to try and fucking treat me like a piece of shit again. I dare them.
My only question is how petty do I get? Do I wear the corset he bought me? Yeah .... I didn't think so. I'm more adult than that. Though it is really fucking tempting.