dear reader,

[becalledallen]

i feel like im an alright person.
but the way im always alone begs to differ.
what is wrong with me.
is death really the route you have to go to see who really gives a fuck?
its worked for so many of my loved ones.
i dont know anymore.
im not pissed that im alone.
im pissed that i have no one i really like to share music with.
only a bunch of kids that are lost and looking for someone to lead them.
all that practice and for what.
fucking nothing.
ive gotten sooooo much fucking better than i could have ever thought possible.
and no one to share it with.
at least no one that can keep up.
music is my world.
but without a world how am i expected to live?
i dont understand my life or my motives.
i just know that my bass and my dog are my only friends.
maybe i have more but im to alone to notice.
i have nothing but hate and disgust anymore.
i hope all the love you feel is caught in a condom.