leave me alone
Hmmm my poor angelica ... her car is hurt and it had to be towed back here. She was crying and this is one of the only times in real life have I actually gone back and made sure they were okay and give them a hug. I've been wanting to do that forever and I finally did it
JESUS AND THE LIGHT AT THE SAME TIME (all possible by cynthiUH)
Hmm so last night I called the sav. She was at the mall and I gave her mom my number because I wanted to talk for a sec. I never got my call. Oh well I was going to see what I could do to help her for our English final. I don't know if she did well. I just wanted her to do good. Pass the class with a decent grade... oh well I think I did fine on my english final so I'm not worried I should have an A or High B.
I did really good on my math final.... I think I'm getting a B in that class. That's awesome because my last mid term grade was a C... bleh. I did good on my PE too... got an A on that test. & Band well who can I not pass it with flying colors? Haha I don't know because I did pass it with flying colors
I guess this means for 2 months I can hide and sleep. I'm going to miss everyone. I'm so afraid everyone is not going to want to talk to me or something. Argh
I guess it's time for my annual school reflection and events and friends.
Beginning of school I hung out with Sam all the time. We'd eat pizza and listen to jack off jill. I gradually pulled Bubba into my little reject group. Besides Bubba's blunt comments I do love being around him. With Bubba came Gimpy. Gimpy and me were the ultimate tweakers. I was little Miss Queen Tweaker. Sit outside and pop pills and my problems just faded away. It was like I was in a field of paper flowers and candy clowds of lullaby. I enjoying laying in myself for hours and not even know it was me (forgive the allusion) Then I went through my... Oh look it's Savanna... I wish I knew her- she's so awesome. It seemed when I really wanted her there she wasn't so I think for a while I blocked my longing for a friend (that was a girl) I put on hold with drugs. Lethal doses that should have killed me. The funnier thing is I'm considered a light weight. I have such a tolerence for meth, speed, and coke that I can take enough to kill me if it was my first time or something.
Then my clean stage were I shut off the world and sat at the picnic table by my self and drew or cried. I could also be found in my corner
I remember sav gaining interest in me and coming to see while I was trying to lite something of mine on fire. I loved to see Sav go out of her way to say hello.
Gradually I become able to go and hang out with sav. Which was prolly the best thing I did that year.
Now it's over
Here's my thank you to everyone in my life right now
Michell you have really stuck it out this year and I'm uber proud of you. Even if you are failing chem (that class sucks anyway) but you pulled up your geomtry and you better not be lying because in my box of things I will sent you when I'm done with be another "woohooo" for that. I'm glad I have someone as genuine as you to love me the way you do. I love ya too... trust me
Alex you are so much fun. I love your insight and I'm glad you're always down to talking with me. Thanks for sticking up for me. It meant a lot to me for you to say... that yeah I'm a human and I have porblems. That's okay ... right? Look out the window- the sun is coming up
Bubba lmao what is there to say? We hung out downtown saying "sucky fucky 5$," saw the rocky horror picture show live, were found in the bathroom at Harkins late at night in the women's bathroom. Even though you saw my music taste for the most part sucks... I still love you because it's your blunt comments that sometimes make me want to slit your throat, it's all good because you're my Bubba
Shanna hmm I believe I've disappointed you this year. I know you were mad at me for something I said. I'm sorry girly. We did have some fun times. Pissing Camein off and sending as out of the room. Making us play that game that was a cross between the name game and duck duck goose for like 45 hours. Too bad you missed tour... it was mucho fun <3
Dave (loathe) oh oh I'm so glad you stayed. I was sooo worried about you- I was like, "where's dave?" Then you came back with your weakened grin which made me smile. Don't even forget that I love you and you're journal at that. No matter what happens you'll still be with me and stay pleaseeeee.
Craig hahaha my buddy! You are the COOLEST guy! I always always have fun with you. Band wouldn't be the same without you. You bring out the best in me when no one else does.
Adam hahahaha this says it all
avarissilence: *eats jessicas house
BeautyScream: Ok I wont...... oh damn you do know where I live *panics*
avarissilence: How does it feel to be in my stomach?
avarissilence: What the fuck is your house made of? This is giving me antacid.
avarissilence: *proceeds to regurgitate Jessica and her house. Flees the scene...never to be seen again......eating houses...
Nick ahhhh you are one of the coolest guys ever too. With our Asian opera singers. My sister is still convinced you are a hippie and she tells me that if you were a good hippie you'd do this and that. It's funny. When we were at the mall and you had to stop your old car in the middle of the road to scrape off frost and snow. You're infectious smile that always made me happy to around ya. Hopefully this isn't the end
Kj I swear I think you played such a huge part in having me get back on track and you were there for me. You talked to me when no one else was brave enough to say anything. Even when I had my razor in my hand. You took me to see Snafu and I had a wonderful time driving out late at night. You're so beautiful in my eyes. I couldn't say any of this (stuff about other people) without you.
Chris wow what a year this was. How knew you'd still be talking to me after I used to call you everynight crying because Brandon wouldn't leave me alone. You said you'd stay and the crazy thing is.... you did. It was so wonderful for you to go out of your way to help me. "When you say you'll always be there, it paints such a lovely picture but no matter how you frame it- it's still pornography"
Kelli hmm not till april did I know what to think of you. I just wasn't sure about you. Now I'm glad I gave you a chance. You're so lovely. You make me smile You say hello just to. We will hang out soon so I can say more nice things about you
Doug story of my life.... I always fall so hard for you and you know it. Nothing more to say.
Savvy hopefully this go on forever and ever. What to say first? If there's anyone I want to be by my side forever it's you. Sometimes I feel like some people don't have very good expectations for you (and me) so I swear on my life we will rock and buy land and a house in Maine. Remake Mr.Sandman. Take someone if you want because the person I want to take is you even though you'll be in the band. You have done everything for me and I don't think you know it. I'd do anything to make you happy even if it meant kill myself if that made you happy then I'd do that. We will be Rotten but Beautiful and the next stage in the grrrl band revolution. I love you more then anything
Mbmb kids I don't really go on much anymore so there's not much to say. For those who still pay attention to me... much love to you. Like Scott <3
Ryan and Jessi we're keeping this fair.... so I think both of you are grand
I'm going to stop... if you so have the desire I will write something about you if you're not here. Just say something... lol
Nothing that I can do about it,
~+JESSICKA LAVON+~
JESUS AND THE LIGHT AT THE SAME TIME (all possible by cynthiUH)
Hmm so last night I called the sav. She was at the mall and I gave her mom my number because I wanted to talk for a sec. I never got my call. Oh well I was going to see what I could do to help her for our English final. I don't know if she did well. I just wanted her to do good. Pass the class with a decent grade... oh well I think I did fine on my english final so I'm not worried I should have an A or High B.
I did really good on my math final.... I think I'm getting a B in that class. That's awesome because my last mid term grade was a C... bleh. I did good on my PE too... got an A on that test. & Band well who can I not pass it with flying colors? Haha I don't know because I did pass it with flying colors
I guess this means for 2 months I can hide and sleep. I'm going to miss everyone. I'm so afraid everyone is not going to want to talk to me or something. Argh
I guess it's time for my annual school reflection and events and friends.
Beginning of school I hung out with Sam all the time. We'd eat pizza and listen to jack off jill. I gradually pulled Bubba into my little reject group. Besides Bubba's blunt comments I do love being around him. With Bubba came Gimpy. Gimpy and me were the ultimate tweakers. I was little Miss Queen Tweaker. Sit outside and pop pills and my problems just faded away. It was like I was in a field of paper flowers and candy clowds of lullaby. I enjoying laying in myself for hours and not even know it was me (forgive the allusion) Then I went through my... Oh look it's Savanna... I wish I knew her- she's so awesome. It seemed when I really wanted her there she wasn't so I think for a while I blocked my longing for a friend (that was a girl) I put on hold with drugs. Lethal doses that should have killed me. The funnier thing is I'm considered a light weight. I have such a tolerence for meth, speed, and coke that I can take enough to kill me if it was my first time or something.
Then my clean stage were I shut off the world and sat at the picnic table by my self and drew or cried. I could also be found in my corner
I remember sav gaining interest in me and coming to see while I was trying to lite something of mine on fire. I loved to see Sav go out of her way to say hello.
Gradually I become able to go and hang out with sav. Which was prolly the best thing I did that year.
Now it's over
Here's my thank you to everyone in my life right now
Michell you have really stuck it out this year and I'm uber proud of you. Even if you are failing chem (that class sucks anyway) but you pulled up your geomtry and you better not be lying because in my box of things I will sent you when I'm done with be another "woohooo" for that. I'm glad I have someone as genuine as you to love me the way you do. I love ya too... trust me
Alex you are so much fun. I love your insight and I'm glad you're always down to talking with me. Thanks for sticking up for me. It meant a lot to me for you to say... that yeah I'm a human and I have porblems. That's okay ... right? Look out the window- the sun is coming up
Bubba lmao what is there to say? We hung out downtown saying "sucky fucky 5$," saw the rocky horror picture show live, were found in the bathroom at Harkins late at night in the women's bathroom. Even though you saw my music taste for the most part sucks... I still love you because it's your blunt comments that sometimes make me want to slit your throat, it's all good because you're my Bubba
Shanna hmm I believe I've disappointed you this year. I know you were mad at me for something I said. I'm sorry girly. We did have some fun times. Pissing Camein off and sending as out of the room. Making us play that game that was a cross between the name game and duck duck goose for like 45 hours. Too bad you missed tour... it was mucho fun <3
Dave (loathe) oh oh I'm so glad you stayed. I was sooo worried about you- I was like, "where's dave?" Then you came back with your weakened grin which made me smile. Don't even forget that I love you and you're journal at that. No matter what happens you'll still be with me and stay pleaseeeee.
Craig hahaha my buddy! You are the COOLEST guy! I always always have fun with you. Band wouldn't be the same without you. You bring out the best in me when no one else does.
Adam hahahaha this says it all
avarissilence: *eats jessicas house
BeautyScream: Ok I wont...... oh damn you do know where I live *panics*
avarissilence: How does it feel to be in my stomach?
avarissilence: What the fuck is your house made of? This is giving me antacid.
avarissilence: *proceeds to regurgitate Jessica and her house. Flees the scene...never to be seen again......eating houses...
Nick ahhhh you are one of the coolest guys ever too. With our Asian opera singers. My sister is still convinced you are a hippie and she tells me that if you were a good hippie you'd do this and that. It's funny. When we were at the mall and you had to stop your old car in the middle of the road to scrape off frost and snow. You're infectious smile that always made me happy to around ya. Hopefully this isn't the end
Kj I swear I think you played such a huge part in having me get back on track and you were there for me. You talked to me when no one else was brave enough to say anything. Even when I had my razor in my hand. You took me to see Snafu and I had a wonderful time driving out late at night. You're so beautiful in my eyes. I couldn't say any of this (stuff about other people) without you.
Chris wow what a year this was. How knew you'd still be talking to me after I used to call you everynight crying because Brandon wouldn't leave me alone. You said you'd stay and the crazy thing is.... you did. It was so wonderful for you to go out of your way to help me. "When you say you'll always be there, it paints such a lovely picture but no matter how you frame it- it's still pornography"
Kelli hmm not till april did I know what to think of you. I just wasn't sure about you. Now I'm glad I gave you a chance. You're so lovely. You make me smile You say hello just to. We will hang out soon so I can say more nice things about you
Doug story of my life.... I always fall so hard for you and you know it. Nothing more to say.
Savvy hopefully this go on forever and ever. What to say first? If there's anyone I want to be by my side forever it's you. Sometimes I feel like some people don't have very good expectations for you (and me) so I swear on my life we will rock and buy land and a house in Maine. Remake Mr.Sandman. Take someone if you want because the person I want to take is you even though you'll be in the band. You have done everything for me and I don't think you know it. I'd do anything to make you happy even if it meant kill myself if that made you happy then I'd do that. We will be Rotten but Beautiful and the next stage in the grrrl band revolution. I love you more then anything
Mbmb kids I don't really go on much anymore so there's not much to say. For those who still pay attention to me... much love to you. Like Scott <3
Ryan and Jessi we're keeping this fair.... so I think both of you are grand
I'm going to stop... if you so have the desire I will write something about you if you're not here. Just say something... lol
Nothing that I can do about it,
~+JESSICKA LAVON+~