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Selfish and Stupid
The question is, could i be any more of an idiot then i already thought i was? The answer is always yes. Every situation that I seem to find myself in, i find an amazing way of having it end in the worst way possible. Call it the product if being dumb and naive, but as long as I try to do the right thing it will always be the wrong one. I will make your life complicated and I will make you wish you had never met me. This apparently is my goal in life. There should be a warning label somewhere. It can be in all languages telling you if you see me coming turn your ass around and run. I wish saying "Im sorry" could be enough, but I know they will just seem like empty words coming from me. I will forever wonder at what moment I became this person. The kind of person that you spend your whole life avoiding. A "Life Ruiner". The road to hell is said to be paved with good intentions, I always wondered what the ladder to heaven was made of but I guess im not religious enough to know. Maybe this is Gods little joke on me for only wanting to go to church for the free donuts and songs. Good thing I will have years to contemplate all this, while I am walking down that road that I have nicely made for myself. How could I possibly be this stupid? If there was something I could do, I would in a second. It is true when they say you only hurt the ones you care about the most. I'm sorry I cared. I am blind and stupid and for that other people will pay.
So if you have met me, please forget me. Run away screaming and I only hope that you get out in time. For those I have yet to meet I am sorry, because you will regret the day you do. So until that day comes, this is me warning you.
The question is, could i be any more of an idiot then i already thought i was? The answer is always yes. Every situation that I seem to find myself in, i find an amazing way of having it end in the worst way possible. Call it the product if being dumb and naive, but as long as I try to do the right thing it will always be the wrong one. I will make your life complicated and I will make you wish you had never met me. This apparently is my goal in life. There should be a warning label somewhere. It can be in all languages telling you if you see me coming turn your ass around and run. I wish saying "Im sorry" could be enough, but I know they will just seem like empty words coming from me. I will forever wonder at what moment I became this person. The kind of person that you spend your whole life avoiding. A "Life Ruiner". The road to hell is said to be paved with good intentions, I always wondered what the ladder to heaven was made of but I guess im not religious enough to know. Maybe this is Gods little joke on me for only wanting to go to church for the free donuts and songs. Good thing I will have years to contemplate all this, while I am walking down that road that I have nicely made for myself. How could I possibly be this stupid? If there was something I could do, I would in a second. It is true when they say you only hurt the ones you care about the most. I'm sorry I cared. I am blind and stupid and for that other people will pay.
So if you have met me, please forget me. Run away screaming and I only hope that you get out in time. For those I have yet to meet I am sorry, because you will regret the day you do. So until that day comes, this is me warning you.