Ignore This Post Please Im Just Venting...
So I can't help but feel like everything I do is shitty. Everything I touch is shitty and if things don't start picking up soon, I don't know what im going to do. I feel... well, for a lack of better words, shitty.
I can't think straight about anything. I've got a doctors appointment I can't stop thinking about. I swear I don't think I haven't thought about it for a straight 24 hours. I have stress from school because I joined this honors program thing and I have to do well. This whole year has just been up and down and everywhere but the way I want it to go. I know you don't get everything you want, but at least give me something...
So far this year I have been back and forth to the doctor about 3 times, soon 4. I have a cell phone that doesn't take calls so everyone thinks im ignoring them. I lost a friend, and the more I say I don't care, the more I realize that I do.
There is more. Probably just some more petty shit, but more none the less. I should go.
Don't tell me everything will be ok. Not when im more confuesed than ever. Im not in the mood for that. Im not writing for pity, just writing because if I don't, I think I will explode...
I can't think straight about anything. I've got a doctors appointment I can't stop thinking about. I swear I don't think I haven't thought about it for a straight 24 hours. I have stress from school because I joined this honors program thing and I have to do well. This whole year has just been up and down and everywhere but the way I want it to go. I know you don't get everything you want, but at least give me something...
So far this year I have been back and forth to the doctor about 3 times, soon 4. I have a cell phone that doesn't take calls so everyone thinks im ignoring them. I lost a friend, and the more I say I don't care, the more I realize that I do.
There is more. Probably just some more petty shit, but more none the less. I should go.
Don't tell me everything will be ok. Not when im more confuesed than ever. Im not in the mood for that. Im not writing for pity, just writing because if I don't, I think I will explode...