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I'm finding myself inbetween stages of life all the time. It's like once you get comfortable in one stage you get thrown into another one and you have to adapt to it. It's weird working with all older people because we talk about this stuff. In a way i guess it's comforting talking to someone who has gone through a good portion of the stuff that i have. But at the same time i know that what worked for them isn't going to work for me. Back to these stages. Like in boy scouts, i used to be a scout, so i helped with everything. Now that i'm an adult it's hard just sitting back because i remember how well i did it, and that i can't really do it for them how it should be done. I'm at a point in my life now that it seems as if everyone around me knows what they want to do, and i'm stuck here not knowing. Sometimes i just feel that it would be easier if i were to just say fuck everyone and drive off into the sunset to find a new me. The only problem with that is..it would be irresponsible of me and very immature. It's like i should just suck it up and do something that will pay the bills. I hear psycology is neat. I fear i will over analyze myself though and turn crazy from many complexes i would develope. That's another thing, growing up is so crazy, as parents the littest of actions could initiate profound disorders in the child as they grow. By holding them to much or not enough, by breast feeding, or even getting them to walk or potty train to soon. We live in a nation that is so stuck in our ways that by the mear thought of changing them sends a roar of fear of the unknown. I understand that none of this makes sense because it has to structure, but i just type it out as it comes. Enjoy.
Dustin
Dustin