Time for a Few updates
I'm going to post some posts I made in anothe rblog but never got around to doing in here. They are moody ones, and the last one is how i feel now : )
Number 1
I'm Not a Drama Queen and I know How To Have FUN! I apologise for not being a drama queen
But why should I apologise? I know how to have alot more fun!
You get boys attention by having fun, not being a fooking sook.
Cheer up sooks get over urselves already, cause we're ALLLL over it, some just don't know it yet.
Another reason why 99% of women suck.
And why are u sods of men attracted to these drama queens?
You need to give someone a cuddle? I need cuddle I just don't go crying for them.
You need to cheer someone up to make you feel better? Trust me I can make you feel ALOT better in other ways (True I may have sounded like a tart then, but we all know the truth now) and no tears involved!
Yeah attention seeking drama queens are pissing me off at the moment, cause they get what they want and they DON'T deserve it.
So I found my flaw in life.. I'm not an attention seeker drama queen... I'm sorry :p
If any readers found this offensive, then my dear lasses you are what I speak of.
Number 2
Would u sacrifice your happiness for a friend? Well would you? Time and Time again, Friend after Friend? And you do it so much that you become the person who will always sacrfice your happiness for a friend's happiness.
Say you fancied someone, and every day it grew and grew, because ever day you learn something new about this person that makes them more your "perfect" person. (Yeas we all know noone is perfect). But one of your good friends has decided they want the person you like. Hey you might not have the chance with the person you like, but be fucked if you want someone else to have them. But sure why not, let your friend have them. You probaly let your friend have them before you even realised this person was "perfect" and getting more so by the day. Now you want this person to be your own. Should you make a go for it? Or should you just stand by and watch another friend get what you want?
Well in this situation, I always let my friends win. Infact in everything I do I always sacrifce my enjoyment and happiness to make friends happy. Does it get me anywhere? Well not really. It does really piss me off. I would like my own happy times, and someone to stand by and watch me get what I and they want, rather then it always being the other way round. Will anyone do it for me? No they wont. Not the ones I want to anyway.
Anyway just some random thoughts. I hope it made you think, and see a part of me people don't usually see.
Number 3
I'm also moody, so mood swing are probably going to be present in this blog. And mostly grumpy ones.
First of all, what is with this stupid fashion of those disgusting short fucking shorts and fucking high heels? Also with high heels, how come dumb freaking whores where them.. when they can't even walk in them when they are sober, let alone drunk? Oh thats right to act pathetic cause u stupid men seem to go for the pathetic girls. That's right! (By the way this isnt aimed at all you men, I still love my faves, but hey all people can annoy you sometimes right?). Im more annoyed with the stupid women then the men anyways. I wish i had like superman eyes so I could blow up the ones that annoyed the shit out of me. Or even like a semi blow up, that if I decide to have the person around again I coudl bring them back lol. That could work if semi friends annoyed you :p. Hmm no maybe that wouldn't be a good idea, then the men I'd want would turn gay and I hate men lol. Because truth be known even if I was the last woman on earth the ones I want wouldn't want me (yes I know slef pity/self hate boofreakinghoo)
Also Truth be known, I don't think I'm too bad a person, both in looks and personality. The reason why I get so shitted off is because males don't think the same, and if they do they don't fucking say anything and wind up with yet another unworthy hoe. Sure be patient the world says. It would be easier to be patient if I knew it would be worth while, and got a little somewhere before hand. I can't be patient when I see others getting what I want. They aren't patient, so why should I be? Oh that's right, its the whole Gate theory again.
Sure Its my decision to be the gate that is the opening path to others happiness, or I could close it off. But I can't really be the gate that is shut for others happiness can i? Then alot of the people I like would hate me, even the main aim of the game. (Yes I don't expect any of you to get that but thats ok). Why would they hate me? Cause others would be sad. No one really cares if I'm sad. No one stands aside to let me be happy. It's ok for them to go barging in and make themselves happy, but If I did that I would be thrown to the dogs. It's not the way I want it to be, who would want that? The only way for me to change it is go in and get what I want, and hurt alot of people on the way that I don't really want to hurt, and scare away my chance of happiness lol. So it's like doomed if you do and doomed if you don't.
As mentioned I'd be happy to be patient if I was in the situation of knowing truly that what iw ant will be.. like someone come up and say "hey ur it, urt the real deal, let me have my fun, and i'll come to u when i'm settling" which wont be that far away. I could probably deal with that. But when it looks like someone else is getting what I'm wanting then it kind of freaks me out and pisses me off cause thats my happiness not theirs.
Oh and for the record, those who know that saga of my ex best friends (and for those that don't, I'm sure thers a blog in here somewhere, otherwise ask about it) Well they broke up, as I knew they would. BUT they are now back together. I tell u, I don't get justice. I don't get Karma. I don't put out bad Karma that I know of, but I get alot of it thrown back at me. For once thos person was going to feel absolutle pain.. but no, shes a whore, she deserves better right? Yeah another thing to add to my moodyness.
Hmm well that's all I can be bothered typing for now. Those who read, don't be offended, it's probably not directed at you, its just random emotions on a page. Don't go avoiding me, or I'll kick you down! Why? Because you go and give attention to others who do this, yet you avoid me if I do it.. yeah thats the way it works isn't it. The only difference is? I only do this in blogs and online, I don't do it in "face to face" situations.
- every night you admit defeat and cry yourself blind -
So if you wander why I'm bitter, it's because I'm sick of being the open gate to someone elses happiness when it leaves me disappointed and wandering whats wrong with me.
Number 4
I Got Better, I Got Strong!
Well something like that. Yes I'm in a great mood right about now. Pretty content to, and yet I have nothing more then I had the last few weeks, other then another great night out with great people. Let your feelings feel. Don't try to hide any feelings and keep them locked up inside, just let yourself feel the feelings and emotions, no matter what they are. You could be in for a great ride that could end up in a great night. And you will feel better for it, rather then tense because you're trying to shove down feelings that you think shouldn't be there, because it could mean disaster. But Maybe this works for me cause I'm a pisces.
I kind of feel a bit unreal hehe, but its cool. It's almost dream like, but its real life, its a bit strange but I'm glad I'm here. I could possibly still be drunk from last night lol, that could explain it hehe. But it's all good, I feel like a floating bubble.. hopefully I don't burst lol.
Who do I have to thank? Well myself of course :p Also Trude, Pebs, Steve, Kym, and bar people where I went last night lol. I also patted some other guys hair lol but have no idea who he was, but he has nice hair. Blurish/dandywarholeish for those playing along and know what I'm talking about lol. However its was really stiff not nice and fluffy.
I hope this mood sticks around for a while, I like it, even if it is an unreal feeling.
I'm also totally in love with Muse at the moment, which is GREAT timing since I'm seeing them at the big day out in a couple of weeks! Woo!. Matthew Bellamy (lead singer of muse) has a voice that drives me wild hehe.
Anyway
Big Hugs to Trude, Steve, Kym, Pebs! Thanks for a grand night and a greand drive hehe :D And I'm sorry for any random garbage that I might have said :p But you get that
Number 1
I'm Not a Drama Queen and I know How To Have FUN! I apologise for not being a drama queen
But why should I apologise? I know how to have alot more fun!
You get boys attention by having fun, not being a fooking sook.
Cheer up sooks get over urselves already, cause we're ALLLL over it, some just don't know it yet.
Another reason why 99% of women suck.
And why are u sods of men attracted to these drama queens?
You need to give someone a cuddle? I need cuddle I just don't go crying for them.
You need to cheer someone up to make you feel better? Trust me I can make you feel ALOT better in other ways (True I may have sounded like a tart then, but we all know the truth now) and no tears involved!
Yeah attention seeking drama queens are pissing me off at the moment, cause they get what they want and they DON'T deserve it.
So I found my flaw in life.. I'm not an attention seeker drama queen... I'm sorry :p
If any readers found this offensive, then my dear lasses you are what I speak of.
Number 2
Would u sacrifice your happiness for a friend? Well would you? Time and Time again, Friend after Friend? And you do it so much that you become the person who will always sacrfice your happiness for a friend's happiness.
Say you fancied someone, and every day it grew and grew, because ever day you learn something new about this person that makes them more your "perfect" person. (Yeas we all know noone is perfect). But one of your good friends has decided they want the person you like. Hey you might not have the chance with the person you like, but be fucked if you want someone else to have them. But sure why not, let your friend have them. You probaly let your friend have them before you even realised this person was "perfect" and getting more so by the day. Now you want this person to be your own. Should you make a go for it? Or should you just stand by and watch another friend get what you want?
Well in this situation, I always let my friends win. Infact in everything I do I always sacrifce my enjoyment and happiness to make friends happy. Does it get me anywhere? Well not really. It does really piss me off. I would like my own happy times, and someone to stand by and watch me get what I and they want, rather then it always being the other way round. Will anyone do it for me? No they wont. Not the ones I want to anyway.
Anyway just some random thoughts. I hope it made you think, and see a part of me people don't usually see.
Number 3
I'm also moody, so mood swing are probably going to be present in this blog. And mostly grumpy ones.
First of all, what is with this stupid fashion of those disgusting short fucking shorts and fucking high heels? Also with high heels, how come dumb freaking whores where them.. when they can't even walk in them when they are sober, let alone drunk? Oh thats right to act pathetic cause u stupid men seem to go for the pathetic girls. That's right! (By the way this isnt aimed at all you men, I still love my faves, but hey all people can annoy you sometimes right?). Im more annoyed with the stupid women then the men anyways. I wish i had like superman eyes so I could blow up the ones that annoyed the shit out of me. Or even like a semi blow up, that if I decide to have the person around again I coudl bring them back lol. That could work if semi friends annoyed you :p. Hmm no maybe that wouldn't be a good idea, then the men I'd want would turn gay and I hate men lol. Because truth be known even if I was the last woman on earth the ones I want wouldn't want me (yes I know slef pity/self hate boofreakinghoo)
Also Truth be known, I don't think I'm too bad a person, both in looks and personality. The reason why I get so shitted off is because males don't think the same, and if they do they don't fucking say anything and wind up with yet another unworthy hoe. Sure be patient the world says. It would be easier to be patient if I knew it would be worth while, and got a little somewhere before hand. I can't be patient when I see others getting what I want. They aren't patient, so why should I be? Oh that's right, its the whole Gate theory again.
Sure Its my decision to be the gate that is the opening path to others happiness, or I could close it off. But I can't really be the gate that is shut for others happiness can i? Then alot of the people I like would hate me, even the main aim of the game. (Yes I don't expect any of you to get that but thats ok). Why would they hate me? Cause others would be sad. No one really cares if I'm sad. No one stands aside to let me be happy. It's ok for them to go barging in and make themselves happy, but If I did that I would be thrown to the dogs. It's not the way I want it to be, who would want that? The only way for me to change it is go in and get what I want, and hurt alot of people on the way that I don't really want to hurt, and scare away my chance of happiness lol. So it's like doomed if you do and doomed if you don't.
As mentioned I'd be happy to be patient if I was in the situation of knowing truly that what iw ant will be.. like someone come up and say "hey ur it, urt the real deal, let me have my fun, and i'll come to u when i'm settling" which wont be that far away. I could probably deal with that. But when it looks like someone else is getting what I'm wanting then it kind of freaks me out and pisses me off cause thats my happiness not theirs.
Oh and for the record, those who know that saga of my ex best friends (and for those that don't, I'm sure thers a blog in here somewhere, otherwise ask about it) Well they broke up, as I knew they would. BUT they are now back together. I tell u, I don't get justice. I don't get Karma. I don't put out bad Karma that I know of, but I get alot of it thrown back at me. For once thos person was going to feel absolutle pain.. but no, shes a whore, she deserves better right? Yeah another thing to add to my moodyness.
Hmm well that's all I can be bothered typing for now. Those who read, don't be offended, it's probably not directed at you, its just random emotions on a page. Don't go avoiding me, or I'll kick you down! Why? Because you go and give attention to others who do this, yet you avoid me if I do it.. yeah thats the way it works isn't it. The only difference is? I only do this in blogs and online, I don't do it in "face to face" situations.
- every night you admit defeat and cry yourself blind -
So if you wander why I'm bitter, it's because I'm sick of being the open gate to someone elses happiness when it leaves me disappointed and wandering whats wrong with me.
Number 4
I Got Better, I Got Strong!
Well something like that. Yes I'm in a great mood right about now. Pretty content to, and yet I have nothing more then I had the last few weeks, other then another great night out with great people. Let your feelings feel. Don't try to hide any feelings and keep them locked up inside, just let yourself feel the feelings and emotions, no matter what they are. You could be in for a great ride that could end up in a great night. And you will feel better for it, rather then tense because you're trying to shove down feelings that you think shouldn't be there, because it could mean disaster. But Maybe this works for me cause I'm a pisces.
I kind of feel a bit unreal hehe, but its cool. It's almost dream like, but its real life, its a bit strange but I'm glad I'm here. I could possibly still be drunk from last night lol, that could explain it hehe. But it's all good, I feel like a floating bubble.. hopefully I don't burst lol.
Who do I have to thank? Well myself of course :p Also Trude, Pebs, Steve, Kym, and bar people where I went last night lol. I also patted some other guys hair lol but have no idea who he was, but he has nice hair. Blurish/dandywarholeish for those playing along and know what I'm talking about lol. However its was really stiff not nice and fluffy.
I hope this mood sticks around for a while, I like it, even if it is an unreal feeling.
I'm also totally in love with Muse at the moment, which is GREAT timing since I'm seeing them at the big day out in a couple of weeks! Woo!. Matthew Bellamy (lead singer of muse) has a voice that drives me wild hehe.
Anyway
Big Hugs to Trude, Steve, Kym, Pebs! Thanks for a grand night and a greand drive hehe :D And I'm sorry for any random garbage that I might have said :p But you get that