racoons are stealing shells in my backyard.

[beatlebabe7]

life isn't really fair. how people can just fuck shit up, and no one even cares. and how people really don't give a fuck about anyone but themselves. i mean, there are people dying, every day, and people don't care. it doesn't make s sad, as long as its no one we know. and we shouldn't have to feel sad. we shouldn't have to feel everyones sorrow, and combine it with our own, we shouldn't have to go through life feeling miserable. everyone is so beautiful. we're all such amazing people, and i hate when we can't see that, and i hate how self absorbed people n general are, and i hate that New Orleans will never be the same, and i hate that i can't help the people i want to help. i hate that i can't make people happy, and that i can't cure what ever the fuck is wrong with everyone. i would give everything i have just to gaurentee that the people i love could see how amazing and beautiful and funy and nice they are. i would give everything it took to ensure that they could lead long happy lives, withut fear, and sadness and pain. i would give the world for everyone to see how much of an inspiration they sar to me. i hate that i can't. i hate that i can't fix things, and i can't make things last, and i hate that things will change for the worse no matter what i do. and i hate fixating on that, but at the same time i hate acting like everything is fine when it isn't. nothing will be fine again. too many good people are gone. too many people have grown beyond their years, too many people will never remember to look back. and at the same time, too many people WILL look back, and live their life in memories. too many people will die before they're ready. too many people will never get to do what they really want.

i just want to stop obsessing for a minute. i think i got everything out of my system. i love you al. yes al, i love you! i fucking love you AL! and i love you all too. hee hee.