Never is a promise and I can't afford to lie...
I know that no one reads this, or really cares at all.
I need to feel real again. I want to feel like I'm not just going through the motions, but that I actually have something to wake up to, and smile about, get excited about... I need to have purpose clearly outlined, because this blind stumble I've got going for me right now hurts more than anything I've ever had to deal with to date.
I want to be happy, really happy... not just surface happy.
I want new friends, ones that will straight-up be there for me, not just have me to fix their problems and go... If I had a few more friends like that (ones that I could physically go out with and talk) I wouldn't have a need for this journal at all.
But it was only in my head
Because no one ever says
What they really mean to say
When there's so much at stake
I need to feel real again. I want to feel like I'm not just going through the motions, but that I actually have something to wake up to, and smile about, get excited about... I need to have purpose clearly outlined, because this blind stumble I've got going for me right now hurts more than anything I've ever had to deal with to date.
I want to be happy, really happy... not just surface happy.
I want new friends, ones that will straight-up be there for me, not just have me to fix their problems and go... If I had a few more friends like that (ones that I could physically go out with and talk) I wouldn't have a need for this journal at all.
But it was only in my head
Because no one ever says
What they really mean to say
When there's so much at stake