hold a match to a gasoline world
My head seriously hurts. I seriously wish it would just fall off and I seriously love driving home when it starts to get dark. It makes me feel like I am trying to make a deadline before it gets pitchblack. I like the way the interstate seems like it has no bounds and like a crash could happen any minute and the way everyone is kind of hoping that it's going to be him but at the same time pray it won't be. The road winds and one minute you see the lights from the city as you travel up the hill and the next minute the silhouette of the trees would lead one to believe that she was driving through Africa. The trees could grab you at any minute. The darkness could hypnotize you if you let it. It makes you want to commit suicide. At least lead one to think about it. Not so much because life is not worth living as much as because it's the ultimate D.I.Y. ethic. Don't let disease or age win- just do it your fucking self. I have to agree with Ry-fi on this one: suicide is fascinating. Anytime someone mentions a story ending in suicide or even mentions the thought of it the ears in the room perk and the brows furrow. So many ways to do it and so many reasons. I have no desire to kill myself now but i think when i've lived my life to its end i'll end it myself. it just kind of makes sense i suppose. there is this book that i want to read called the undertaking.
man, ok so today was a day that can be categorized in stages of drooly slumber, confused phone calls, missed opportunities, and sarcastic commentary. one of my father's lady friends came to visit. she was nice. kind of awkward and not in a cute way. a bit too much cleavage and an overall tacky ensemble. she was nice though.
this weekend was pretty amazing. there were so many parties yesterday. lou had her birthday party at the technodrome. dancing, a keg, a nice mix of folk. there was another EXCESSIVELY LARGE party going on out west supposedly. I stayed at Lou's though because she's my friend and i got a friendly phone call requesting my presence. i was also invited by everyone and their mom to go to this high school party at cafe 123. i wasn't too into the idea. parties packed with those guys have never proved to be that impressive. it seemed like lou's was a mix of the acklen house and food not bombs. my head with still hurts.
i saw Sin City this weekend. Payton got Lance and me in for free. Friday was like attack of the ex-boyfriends. i must have run into about three. it seems like all of my ex's are employed in convenient jobs. it was really nice to see payton and for some reason i really, for that moment, wanted to give him a big hug and not let go. when i got home i called him and we spoke on the phone like we used to. we rambled on about bands and talked about their extravagant histories and new sounds. we talked about zombies and what our ideal bionic body part would be. i wish i had a lasergun in my elbow and the button to ignite on my shoulder.
today i saw leah and adrea..both of which had been a while.
i am still getting used to this whole radio thing. this past weekend has had quite an effect on me. i cried when they raised that 70 foot tower. everyone together, working to give a voice to those marginalized by the corporate media. i don't know who took these pictures but they are all i've got. i should be getting a video soon. it was weird not to leave my house at all too. it was the first time i've truly equated my house with a 'home' feeling. it's always just been the fact that i was with my dad that did it.
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man, ok so today was a day that can be categorized in stages of drooly slumber, confused phone calls, missed opportunities, and sarcastic commentary. one of my father's lady friends came to visit. she was nice. kind of awkward and not in a cute way. a bit too much cleavage and an overall tacky ensemble. she was nice though.
this weekend was pretty amazing. there were so many parties yesterday. lou had her birthday party at the technodrome. dancing, a keg, a nice mix of folk. there was another EXCESSIVELY LARGE party going on out west supposedly. I stayed at Lou's though because she's my friend and i got a friendly phone call requesting my presence. i was also invited by everyone and their mom to go to this high school party at cafe 123. i wasn't too into the idea. parties packed with those guys have never proved to be that impressive. it seemed like lou's was a mix of the acklen house and food not bombs. my head with still hurts.
i saw Sin City this weekend. Payton got Lance and me in for free. Friday was like attack of the ex-boyfriends. i must have run into about three. it seems like all of my ex's are employed in convenient jobs. it was really nice to see payton and for some reason i really, for that moment, wanted to give him a big hug and not let go. when i got home i called him and we spoke on the phone like we used to. we rambled on about bands and talked about their extravagant histories and new sounds. we talked about zombies and what our ideal bionic body part would be. i wish i had a lasergun in my elbow and the button to ignite on my shoulder.
today i saw leah and adrea..both of which had been a while.
i am still getting used to this whole radio thing. this past weekend has had quite an effect on me. i cried when they raised that 70 foot tower. everyone together, working to give a voice to those marginalized by the corporate media. i don't know who took these pictures but they are all i've got. i should be getting a video soon. it was weird not to leave my house at all too. it was the first time i've truly equated my house with a 'home' feeling. it's always just been the fact that i was with my dad that did it.
http://www.pbase.com/teleburst/barnraising_saturday
LOW POWER TO THE PEOPLE! RADIO FREE NASHVILLE IS ON THE AIR! 98.9 WRFN- COMMUNITY RADIO!