I miss those days and I miss those ways, when i got lost in fantasies..~ for you Jayne.
I need a life. I need a life real bad. Well not a life, just maybe some help. I sit here and think, thats all i do. And my thinking is of all bad stuff that i really dont wanna be thnking about. Im not really sure wot to do...how to stop thinking, i wanna think about something postive but when i try, the negative stuff catches up with me. Brains are too complex, specially some peoples.
(Example..see it starts off postive....) I got a new au pair today. Shes really lovely. My mum doesnt like her and is being mean. (And goes back to negative...) This just makes me dislike my mum even more cos some poor polish girl is so nervous and my mum just gives her evils and comes across like an actual monster man munch. The she takes it all out on me and shouts. And i hate it cos then Richard gets involved. And that really is some scary shit.
Anyway, im so screwed cos my heads been in a stupid mood tonite and i have a hell of a lot of work due in tomorro and i havent done it. I hate my head. And it gives me migraines..i couldnt move yesterday, it was so painful. Anyway, sorry for writing this cos i realise i sound like a depressive actually this is a livejournal. Ignore it all, i think thats wot others do. x