you know who you are

[beaniechick]

i don't know wtf u said 2 him last nite but apparently it was enuf 4 him to hate me now. he says you told him everything, and i'm just confused as to what exactly you had to tell him. all i ever wanted in my life was exactly what i had with him and it took every ounce of strength in my body to try to let him go because i thought it was what he ultimately wanted from me, and all i have ever wanted 2 do for him was 2 make him happy. the whole time, people who dont know me or in some cases even him kept trying 2 interfere telling me/him what 2 do. my problem was that i believed them when all i should have believed is how much i truly love that man. i dunno what u think u were trying 2 do but whatever u did do it fucked him up worse to where he thinks i must not care 4 him or smn, which is complete bs. if u have a problem then perhaps we should meet 1 of these days. i've got nothing more 2 lose, mostly do to my own inability to show him how much i love him, but partly because of you.

everyone just fuck off for now, i really don't know why trust is even a word since it's just a bs theory that people should learn is just idealistic.